4.26.2009

I Miss Texas:[


Bang!
Explosions in my head that just won’t quit
A train has crashed into the wall around my heart and left the old me dead
Obliterated
Stop!
My breathing in the night when you’re not their
The silence ringing through my ears
And all I want to do is hear your voice
But you're not their

Drawn together
Painter’s brush stroke
Sleight of hand
We won’t go up in smoke
Fates colliding
Love undying

Like the rising tide
Beating hearts grow but never die
To simplify
I’ll stand by your side
Close my eyes
Hope will never die

Go!
And take away the pain of being me
Soothe my soul caress my heart and
End my fear all my bad memories
Eradicated
Ring!
Like gunshots heard against a silent night
My love is louder then these words
They’re stronger then the rest, unstoppable

Remake of 101 truths


1. Samantha Marie
2. B.A.A=<33
3. I have the weirdest music you have ever heard of.
4. i cry when im frustrated.
5. pinky promises are what i do
6. my sister is amazingly amazing.
7. I hate silence.
8. number one is my favorite:]
9. surprisingly i have an interesting time at school.
10. i cant multi-task like other girls
11. i prefer walking
12. Texas is my big brother.
13. i dont like to sit and wait, i like to keep moving.
14. i love swimming.
15. i wanna secret place with him
16. when i find him
17. people call me weird...
18. but i dont care
19. he makes the butterflies in my tummy:]
20. Colors are my friend
21. KAITLYN is my bestie.
22. boys confuse me.
23. try to figure me out, it`s impossible.
24. i love hugs.
25. i get bored easily.
26. I doing soccer this year and the next:]
27. im probably gonna kill myself.
28. Im very clumsy and unbalanced.
29. Im dying my hair blue or purple...
30. My school is super retarded.
31. Number one is amazing.
32. i think things throughly before setting forth.
33. i cant listen to rap for long periods of time.
34. it gets to me.
35. me and my bestie are like pb&j
36. i love techno/rave/rock/house/club/trance music
37. im so fresh i got the keys to the bakery.
38. i like scary movies.
39. i want to learn to play guitar and bass guitar.
40. i like to cuddle.
41. My number one fear is thunderstorms.
42. I know its retarded.
43. i wanna be a kid again.
44. never again, purple hippos
45. people tend to underestimate me.
46. I dont like it.
47. i want a dragon lizard for a pet.
48. i write alot.
49. many people call me babe, so you`re no different.
50. fifty-one more truths to go.
51. I read alot.
52. i like to laugh.
53. who doesn`t?
54. i dont use my common sense.
55. finger painting is fun.
56. i change my mind alot.
57. i have a dream to move to iceland.
58. im joining the SHS drumline in nineth grade wheather you like it or not.
59. i dance with or without music.
60. i want to learn to read piano music, badly.
61. i`m pretty slow when it comes to jokes.
62. i like stupid facts.
63. buy me a cookie the size of my head and i`ll love you forever.
64. i want to go to Italy.
65. I`m pretty smart when i want to be.
66. i`ve been awesome since 1996.
67. i I draw alot od doodles.
68. i read alot of vampire books.
69. my favorite movie would have to be the COVENAT
70. i talk alot about what i know.
71. i hate it when people typez alz liks dis and u cantz undertsandz dem.
72. i want someone to write a poem about me:]
73. i would love them forever if they did.
74. People say i act older then my age.
75. People say i act way younger then my age.
76. i like new music.
77. purple rain is probably the only musical i lovee.
78. i worry about the stupidest stuff.
79. i was bron in the spring.
80. HALLOWEEN is my favorite holiday.
81. i have two more weeks until im DONE SCHOOL:]
82. i like to confuse people with big words.
83. i wonder alot.
84. i dont like 84 very much
85. I`ve never seen King Kong:]
86. HSK is aahmazing.
87. I love snickers.
88. i hate resse`s.
89. I likke resse`s pieces!
90. my sister calls me slam
91. ten more truths.
92. everyone is doudting us right now:[
93. my hair is CRAZY curls.
94. i straighten it.
95. i don`t know what to put for right here so im typing this.
96. number 95 was super doper cheezy.
97. my sister calls me fattie.
98. my Texas calls me Ducky.
99. it`s a long story, dont ask.
100. i can be concieded at times.
101. i can`t spell to save my life:]

4.25.2009

The PLANN is off:[


Many many diamonds danglin'
Bag full of money we stranglin'
All the above cuz you can't get in
I don't want no puro buremu
Because muy professional
Make you, shake you, ketsu (thank you!)
Haters take it personal

Happy birthday uncle charlie and shawn!! You are now a year older and your life is a year happier. Hope you had a good one:]
The party was great. I saw my aunt julie for the first time since her husband died. It was so weird seeing her without him. I still have to get use to it. But everyone else was there. Including people i didn`t even know.

4.18.2009

A favorite song:]





"Pass out at three, wake up at ten go out to eat, then do it again"
-Asher Roth; I love college

So I listened to this song on the radio and use to hate it. Now i love it. It`s so funny. My sister thinks it`s annoying. Ha everything but.

I have nothing to do, make plans with me . I have a week til the plan happens:]

4.16.2009

My day has been great!


block: maybe.
s4mm dee: :]
s4mm dee: well who ever she is
s4mm dee: shes very lucky
block: Yes she is. She very special to me
block: Extremely beautiful
s4mm dee: really
block: Id easily die for her.
s4mm dee: must be amazing to have your heart
block: Yep
s4mm dee: aww thas so amazing

4.15.2009

My Song

I gotta ring, yes i do, I gotta a ring, how `bout you? My ring is awesome, its the very best. Its silver witha black band wrapped around it. It makes me smile yes it does. I love my ring. Even though its not mine. Its HIS ring. He wanted me to have it. I almost cried when he gave it to me. It was his mom`s ring before she..left. He held on to it, and he said he wanted me to have it and maybe it`ll give me luck like it brought her luck. I so happy right now. I just wanna sing...but i wont for your happiness :]

P.S. I say OK SO...alot at the beginning of my past blogs if you haven`t noticed.

4.13.2009

The bubbles joke...HA



I wanna bewith him. I will be with him. The obsticals can get over it. I wanna make myself happy before them. People always say you`re selfish when you do something for yourself for once, instead of always having to be careful what you do around other people. It gets kinda hard after a while and you get fed up with it. Just make yourself happy before eveyone else. Somethimes the rule think about others before yourslef just doesnt applie.

4.12.2009

I`m Crying So Badly...


My Dearest,
I've missed you very very much since that last night we were together
and will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come
I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately
I've read your letter through at least four times
and will probably read it more times before I'm through
I've been sitting here.. looking at your picture
and getting more homesick every minute
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of except of course...
you yourself
I keep thinking of you darling
I keep wishing I could be home with you
I want to leave in the worst possible way
So I can come home to see you but..
Things don't look so good on that subject
And this war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess..
I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now
I'm completely lost without you darling
I never realized I could miss any one person so much
I just hope it won't be too much longer until I'm able to be with you again
And live a sane and normal life

Breaking My Back Just To Know Your Name


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6r4KT8-VX0

thats the link to an awesome song.

Wow, that effect on him, crazy. This is gonna be in my head for a while. Today crazy bad. Everytime we looked at eachother i would smile real big thinking about it. Then he`d ask me if i was ok and I would just burst out laughing. Then he just turned his head, probably thinking im crazy. Pfft hahahaha. It was horrible. And he doesn`t know i know either. That just makes it worse. I hope he doesn`t find out that i know. It would be awkward. I would hate it. Gahh.... Hahahahahaha. I really need to stop. haha, OK im done. I think. Whoa dude.

Two more weeks until my school lets out. WOOT WOOT!!!!! im gonna ask my mum if i can dye under neath bright blue. That would be awesome. And then dye my bangs or something purple. I can`t wait im practiclly jumping in my seat right now.:] tehe.

4.09.2009

bekümmert


OK so Ex is now my new favorite song ever. Its german screamo by Hanni Kohl.
German is my favorite language. I use to hate it until i heard german screamo. Now i love it.

Today was very...there isnt a word. IT was just so fun. We used the new school labtops and they`re wayy fast. Its insane. Then in Gym, we played ultimate dodgeball, and i was shaking so badly. I think because i have a fear of any kind of sport`s ball. I got hit twice. Everytime i got a ball i would hand it to one of my friends. My one friend was mad good on the court. She caught half of them and got more people out. She was also dodging them like it was no one`s business. I used my advantage of being very flexable and dodged most of the balls.ha. In Language Arts, Ryan and Quis started to sing and fake fight. I laughed so hard. In spanish, I watched Cat In The Hat, in spanish of course. At lunch Quis started to sing a MJ song but got caught for skipping lunch dentention. Science, best part, Tyler started to tickle me and he wouldnt stop. Not saying i didnt like it, but then Brandan started to too, and he only tickled my waist. If I spelled that right.

My day was just so...prodigious:]