Me and my fashion fetish(:

So, like I confessed a little while ago, I am a fashion addict(me being a little dramatic). I love it and like putting the different pieces of it together to make something glorious. So, to support my fetish, I made a polyvore. A polyvore is a site where you can make pictures, or 'sets', of fashion. You go through pictures of clothes, pick what you like, and add them together to make a picture of an outfit. It's really fun and makes me dream of an amazing wardrobe. I only put together things I either WOULD or THINK I WOULD wear. I would wear most of the stuff I put up, but you know how you see something you like but you would never wear them. Yea. I put stuff like that up sometimes. Most of my works are inspired by my dream to live in NYC and become an amazing hairstylist. The link to check out my profile is on the right of my blog and down under links, listed as "Polyvore/fashion" Click it and you shall enter my dream wardrobe(:
hopeyouLOVEit(:

Et au revoir<3

I've Been A Slacker Big Time...

"I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed."

I haven't been on in a while and I'm sorry. I've been caught up in school, camera issues, and my mother's gracefulness. She slipped down the stairs while it was raining out; by golly she gave me a heart attack. But at least now we know where I got my walking skills from. Haha. But now she's ok for the most part. She has a nasty bruise and her kidney hurts. She's been stay medicated to she can walk around(against the doctors orders) and not feel any pain. Though the medication the doctor gave her is so strong she gets loopy and bakes all the time. We have cookies and sticky buns out the waa-zoo.

On other news, I found my camera, and my laptop is alive. Mostly at least. So I'm going to be doing more photography outside. Don't have to use my stupid laptop camera and be limited. So I'm deleting some of my "me" pictures. Tell me which ones I should keep, I won't throw them out.
I also heard a song that really made me think. And I asked MelonsForWater:[link] a bunch of questions when I heard this song. He doesn't know why I asked them, until probably now. That is if he reads this. Anyway, it's called "Firs Day of My Life" by Bright Eyes. And yes you can find them(one person actually) on myspace and most likely facebook. But Bright eyes is my new favorite band. But I have my life sort of set in motion for the most part. Get my license to be a hair stylist, move to NYC, get a good job, get married, have three kids(I have a theory behind having three kids, ask if you want), and work on my drawing while traveling. I hope it all works out. I'm trying to get my grades up, my low F in socialstudies is now a high F, almost a low D. I'm excited. And my math, science, and Language Arts grades are perfect. Spanish is pretty easy actually. I can read it more fluently then other people in my class. 

I really need to go to Barns & Noble's. I need a new journal. I talked to my mom and she said if I save up my money she'd take me to get one. I have a jar of coins(pennies, nickles, etc.) and I've been filling it for a while now, and I think I have at least five dollars, so I'm thinking I can exchange it at the bank for cash, add that to my NewJournalFund. Yes. I have a journal. Not a diary. I think that's too cheezy and totally not me. Writing relaxes me and helps me keep my head. You should try it(:

'You Don't Know Me' by Ben Folds Ft. Regina Spektor

So my older sister showed me a new artist. His name is Ben Folds(click the title of this post and you can see what he looks like). I love his music. It's different from what most people listen too. My sister and I want to see him live. He does this thing on YouTube where he goes on chatroulette and he plays a piano and sings about the people he incounters. It's soooooo funny. He does it live and that's what we want to see. And him singing, of course. Anyway, you should look him up. Specifically these songs; The Luckiest, You Don't Know Me ft. Regina Spektor, and Gone. He also has a cover of Tiny Dancer by Billy Joel. Look that up too. Haha.

It's offical now. I've changed a lot. Like more then you think. I made this blog in 2008. The beginning of seventh grade. Read my first couple post and then read a couple of my recent post. You can tell how I've changed. At least I think so. But during the 'change', I've lost and gained friends. I wouldn't say lost, just stopped talking to them. I try to be nice to them, but most of the time, it doesn't even work anymore. So I'm actually thinking about giving up trying. Thinking.

I need plans. Like stuff to do with people I talk to now. People I'm close to. And People I don't really hang out with much outside of school. If you know me, hit me up and let's go do something people think is totally stupid, therefore we think it's the funniest thing in the whole world. Haha. And I'm being totally serious.

Et au revoir

"They're the type of people that make me hate Barbie."

So it's offical. I absolutely adore amazing quotes or lyrics or sayings or anything along those lines.  Just look at my about me on here and on my deviant. They're all over the place on my deviant. Quotes help me remember things. Important things. And They are stupid to me. I.E. when I say a quotes in school, people just look at me and say I'm gay. well first of all. That's offensive. I am not gay. At least not the homosexual deff. I am happy though, if you want to be technical. And I like being technical. But what if you said gay in front of a real gay guy? Or a lesbian? What would you do if they took offense to that? I know a lot of gay guys-actually only like two- and they tell me all the time "If I ever hear you saying gay as in homosexual, I will furiously beat you." But like they are, they used higher vocabulary to the point where I had to write down what they said and then look up the words I didn't know. So I summed it up for you. The point: The guys think it's a horrible thing to be gay. They think it's horrible to even be near a gay guy let alone be friends with one. But guys can be friends with lesbians. They're gay too. Just a different gender. Girls, and only most girls, are more open to stuff like that. Unless you meet those really really immature girls that freak out and over react to everything guys think are stupid or 'gay'. They're the type of people that make me hate Barbie.

So I have a new favorite-ish song. It's not a new song, but it's a good song. It's Fast Car by Tracy Chapman. It's so amazing. It makes me realize how good  have it. Some people go through life and they don't even know what they have until it's taken. Some people go through their whole life under stress and they can't wait to get away. Some teenagers are forced to grow up too quick and too soon. It's like todays society doesn't have time to be patient.

Makes me sick.


All this chaos and unruliness. It goes to show, humans are selfish and greedy. Especially people who want to kill themselves. Not all of them at least. but those who kill themselves for the stupidest reasons don't know how selfish it is of them. You don't think about how it would effect others. You're only thinking about how  it'll apparently help you.


Stupid stupid stupid stupid.


Et au revoir

"Appreciate. Validate. Sleeping with the enemy."

I'm trying to hate him. Or ignore him. Or just not think of him the majority of the day. So far, over the week, it seems to be working. I point out his flaws, the little he has, and blow them way out of line. It's kind of sad, and sort of sick, that humans get pleasure out of someone else's flaws or weaknesses. Anyway, slowly but surely, I'm trying to, and hopefully am, ignoring him and/or forgetting him and how he effects me. 


Nothing interesting happens in my life anymore. I can only talk to you about my 'drama' and ideas and hopes and dreams and plans. Which leads me to my next paragraph. 


Fashion. Def: a popular trend, esp. in styles of dress and ornament or manners of behavior. Example: his hair is cut in the latest fashion. I am totally into it. For example, friday went with my sister to the mall, Ross, JC Penny, and deb, and I found some adorable dresses. I ended up finding one my sister absolutely adored, but she wasn't allowed to wear it because of her BF. Blech. Anyway, then, on the way out, I found some really cute clothes. Then through out the whole mall, I figured out a whole outfit under thirty bucks. For me, that's cheap. Haha. Sad right? I like expensive things. What can I say? Well right now I am going through my favorite shops, online of course, and writing down what I want where it's from and the price. So that I can figure out how much I need to earn before I can get any of it.  I'm trying to earn my own money. I've been saving up. The only thing I've bought in almost six months has been a bag if skittles. Oh snap! ahhaa. I'll give you an update on how that's going later before I head to bed. 


Six months is almost here for John and I(: . And it might not seems important to you, but to me, it's big. The last relationship I had that lasted long(nine months) was with him-pushing it out of my mind- so this is feeling like whiplash. It seems like it was only a month ago that he'd asked me out. Haha. Whoa dude. I can;t get it out of my head. Ironic thing is, our two month was on valentines day, and our six month will be five days before my birthday. I just think that's weird. But also a bit funny. He might be coming over thursday. Not sure yet. 


Au revoir(:

Greek Yum(:

Today would've been perfect if girls were so annoying. Yes I'm saying my own gender is headache making. They start drama and spread rumors and just annoy the crap outta. I think the only thing making today amazing was John(: He is such a sweetie. I love him. And the thing that makes it even greater is that he doesn't even realize that him just being there makes my day. Haha. Today when were walking to our buses, he asked me what was wrong and I told him nothing. He automatically knew something was up. Haha. He said, "Girl drama crap. Huh?" The our friend Justin come up and says "Girls are attracted to gossip like fruit flies are to rotten fruit." I couldn't help but laugh. Then John tells me not to worry and that I'll figure something out that'll work out. He told me to try to relax and then he hugged me. And it wasn't just any hug. It was one of those hugs that send loads of butterflies bursting throughout your whole body and causes you to be all tingly. Anyhoo, my day sucked except for spanish and John/Patricia. 

Honestly, HE's been such a jerk lately. And I just found out how immature he is. Yea. I said it. Remember when I said he was so mature and he makes feel like a five year old. Well you can flush that down the drain. He flipped out on a fifth grader because the fifth grader was talking to me. And remember my best friend? Kaitlyn? Yea. She told HIM that the fifth grader was flirting with me. And HE freak out on the fifth grader. He got up in Bud's face and was being a the biggest jerk in the world. I honestly think that what he said about still loving me was a lie. I've noticed he likes to play girls. He likes to play with their feelings and their emotions like they're a toy. And once he gets bored with them, he throws them away. But then he'll get bored with the other ones and go back to the old ones. Trust me. He's done it to me plenty of times. And he usually gets 'bored' with them when the girl points out something about him he doesn't like. So he starts to get mad at you. But you won't see him get mad. He'll start saying things behind your back and wait for you to hear them. Then once you do, you go to him all upset because someone(him is saying things behind your back, and he'll comfort you, saying he'll find out and that he'll beat them up. When in reality, he' thinking, "oh now you're glad I'm here".  He's just play with you. And cheating. Oh god the flirts. If you talk to a boy and he doesn't like, he'll say something to you. And when you say he needs to relax and not worry, he'll say you don't care that he cares. He gives you a guilt trip and make you feel bad so you don't talk to that  boy anymore. But god for bid you say something to him about him talking to girls or flirting with his ex's behind your back. Then he automatically dumps you. right then and there. And then when you two are broken up and everything he's ever said about you is supposably not true, he'll go to another quicker then you can blink. It's ridiculous. And I'm ashamed that I'm saying this about him. But it's sadly true. And I feel bad for every girl he's ever done it to and every girl he will do it to. I honestly am, 

So I think I'm going to change my religion. I'm going to be greek. I believe in the gods and goddesses and their stories are absolutely glorious and interesting and amazing. I love it. And the food. and the music. and the clothes. The ancient greek I'm talking about here. Of course I'd mix in their customs with some of the things I do out of adoration. like music, food, and clothes. I want to get a pair of greek like sandals for greek fair. 

AAAH! Greek Fair. I'm so excited. I'm going to wear a toga or a greek goddesses dress. Whatever you call them.

Stupid Stupid Stupid.

I think it's so funny how people that DONT live in america, want to. And how people that DONT speak english originally, learn to. It's so ironic how america is like crap right now, and people that live in other countries want to live here just to get more freedom or more of a better life. Honestly, I'd do anything to get out of america. The economy rules the country, and right now it's going down the drain. And the adults want to try to hide it, or 'heal' it. They don't think we kids can help. They think "Oh you're just kids, you don't know what's going on or anything about government" When actually we do. Example; the other day, my five year old sister came up to me and told me all the branches of the government and the tax rate for New Jersey. How many kids her age do you know that can do that? Not a lot right? Right. So even kids younger then us know, or at least have a idea, of what's going on. So I think the government should let us speak out and let us get our points and ideas across. I think it would help things.

I think(:

Going Out With a BANG!

Today is the last day of spring break. Even though it wasn't much of a 'spring break', it needs to go out with flare and pahzaz. So, today, before John comes over, I am going to make a video of me doing stupid stuff. I have one idea; Samantha stars in 'Swallow A Tablespoon Of Cinnamon'. I told my sister and she said "Are you going to video tape it, so I can watch you fail?" hahaha. She's going out, so she won't be able to watch  first hand. But I posted a status on face book: Come watch me try to swallow a full tablespoon of cinnamon around 12:30 today." So Either people will show up or they won't. Either way I'm going to do it. I want to try to find other stuff to do. It has to be stupid and slightly dangerous, but nothing to where the chances of being killed are greater then the chances of just injuries. Haha, 'just injuries' not 'minor injuries'. Hope my mom has good insurance. With my luck I'll break something. Bone or not.Gladyly, the chances of me dying are rather slim. But I can choke, so Imma have a cup of water near me, just in case.
ImPumpedLetsDoThis.
Whoa Dude(:


"I'm fine, super sonic, speed machine"(:
And Goodbye

I Have A Confession To Make

I'm a fashion freak. There. I said it. But it's true though. If I see a shirt, a dress, or something and I like it, I'll automatically start looking for other stuff that would go perfectly with it. Especially boots. I absolutely adore boots. But only sexy boots. I mean, some combat boots are cute, and there's this one pair I want, but some are just gross and unattractive looking. Sorry to those who wear them a lot, it's my opinion. Like this white dress. Isn't it adorable? Anyway; It would go nice with this french necklace and these black flats. Of course every outfit needs an adorable bag, like this black one with fringe. I don't mean to be conceited, but I am so good with fashion, that I could make a beautiful outfit in seconds. I love clothes. Ahaa. The funny thing is that when you first meet me, you wouldn't think I would be. Unless you're very observant or I'm commenting on your outfit/clothes period.
Like I have an outfit put together for every season, I'll upload them throughout the week. telling you were I got each item. Which reminds me; The dress, shoes, and bag, you can get at delias. he necklace is a french ivory necklace. I don't know where you could get it, but I bet if you search french necklaces, you'll find something(:

I need a job, I can pretty much do anything if you teach me/ask me(:

I honestly am yearning for money. Because I want things and those things cost money, which frankly, I don't have. And I don't have the patience to wait for my birthday or christmas. So I am telling people who read this blog, mainly for those people who live near Elmer/Pittsgrove, that I can do little jobs to almost any big job. At least big for a 14 year old. Haha. Anyway, I can babysit, I adore kids; I can help you move things, like packing things for moving or storing; I can watch and walk or takecare of pets; I can clean, and I can help with small cafe like places, I'm good with people, and I can help with internet businesses. If you want me to work for you, I think my email is on my profile for here(you can look at my about me and under it is a link that says 'view my complete profile'. click on it). Email me and ask me what you want me to do, and I'll get back to you. Depending on where it is near me, I'll need a ride, and to let my parents know. I ammmmm still 14. Just old enough to work. Haha.

So I know exactly what I want to do with my hair over the summer. Well, near the beginning of June, I want to dye my whole head blonde, like platinum blonde maybe, and then wait maybe two/three weeks and dye all of it blue or purple. If I dye it blue; I'm going to  dye chunks underneath purple and pink. If I dye it purple; I'm going to dye chunks underneath pink and blue. Or for both choices, I can leave some part blonde, and some another color.

YumItSoundsDelicious(:

I'll Never Let you Sweep Me Off My Feet(:

I love hot spring days, because roofs get so lonely. So I give it company, all the while, tanning for the bathing suit season. Hahahaha. I think it's funny that I worry about my skin being pale. At least during the spring/summer because I were a bathing suit and people can see my back and my legs. If it was winter, then I wouldn't care about my skin color. During the winter, I'm a pretty pale. I love it. Anyway, I'm sitting on my roof in shorts and a bathing suit top, and I already see a difference in my skin color. Or I could just be excited that I'm not babysitting today. Haha, either way, I am relaxed and enjoying the sun while I can. I wish someone would come up here with me though. I'm kinda bored and lonely.  And besides, it's a lovely view of the town.

So if you want to hang out with me,m come to my milewidetown(Elma) and come tan with me(:

I won't be posting for a while.... I'll be busy, so don't wait up(:

And Goodbye<3

La Roux....

La Roux is my new favorite artist....... Until I find a new one(: Anyway, My favorite song by her is bulletproof.  It's stuck in my head, and most likely the same will happen to you when you listen to it. Her music is addicting, I should say. It's surely not something you want to skip when heard on a station. Click the title of this blog to listen to it(:


Yesterday was good I guess. I found I look dashing in ivory. Haha.

Have you ever had so many thoughts and worries and ideas in your head, it makes you want to bang your head on a wall just so the pressure is relieved? Yea well, I have. I do now. And when I do, I feel very unorganized. And organization is the one thing I love having control over. Like in school yesterday, the teacher gave us a pill of words to organize into a sentence from the packet. And I already had a pretty good idea. The thing is, I was working in a group. Which I hate, unless it's a video project, but I did try to work with them. But when four people try to put there own sentence together with the same words as me, we have a problem. So I told them to leave me alone so I could get this done. And we won. Ha(:  Back to main point; I need to set aside a day, most likely sunday, and organize my whole room.

Today, on the other hand, I am going to relax on my roof, tan, read, and bathe in the glory of being off from babysitting my little sister for once. I am so glad my older sister is home for a change. And just because she's the one who gets to babysit, but because I never see her anymore. I miss her. Sure I see her at night,  or whenever I go to my dad's maybe, but even then, we never hangout anymore. It sucks. And she complains to me that we never hangout, so I try to do stuff with her, but she's either 'too tired' or on her laptop. Though she would never admit to those things.

I haven't twittered in a while....hmm.... I'm going to change that.

I was talking to my boyfriend on the phone last night and I was the topic of conversation. Ugh.  He is very alert around me and he sees and notices everything I say or do. And he told me last night, that he doesn't understand how I could be so deep into one topic or thing for a spilt second, and then be on a totally new one the next. He said I do it a lot more when I don't want to talk something. Which I do. Or when I don't want people to see if my sad or worried or some strong emotion; minus happy.

I've been listening to a butt load of acoustic music lately. It keeps me mellow, and I love that feeling. Because it's so much easier to deal with bad situations when I'm mellow. And no, I don't mean being high. Jeesh. 


And Goodbye.