He`s Never Seen Hannibal Lector.. OhMyGoodness:)

"Maybe, just once, someone will call me 'Sir' without adding, 'You're making a scene.'" -Homer Simpson:)


       I went to Zac`s house last night. It was interesting, I`ll admit. But it was fun. More then half the night I was laughing:). The other half we were trying to figure out what to do. Ahaa. He lives on a small street far away from a lot of his friends. Sadly, we couldn`t do any part of my project because I didn`t have all of the playlist or a stopwatch. Oh well. I guess we`ll have to try it some other time:). My mom said that now he has to come to our house. Ahaa.  After my mom came to pick me up, which was at eight thirty, we went to my grandparents. We were only suppose to be there for ten minutes. But as always, I found my way to the piano and started playing and experimenting with the new toy my grandpa got.  Then I set the toy to an electric toy box-ish sound, and hit the strings button on the piano-which IS electric-, and then my Grandpa and I started to make an amazing sound. I was having alot of fun. Then my grandpa called me and started asking me about Zac:). She`s like, "what`s he like? Details. I need details!" Ahaa. She asked me what color hair, how tall, does he play any instruments, ect., and I was laughing the whole time. I didn`t know how she knew about him, but then again, Grandma knows all:)<3. 
       I recently realized that I haven`t done my hundred and one truths in forever. So Today I`m dedicating part myself to that. The other parts of me go to homework, research, and a party for my family. I`m dreading the homework part, but everything else seems bubbly. 




WellIBetterGetToItThen(:
Baii<3

Red Apples Tastes Like Red Wine:)

"Do me a favor.... Call me jerk one more time." -Jerk by New Boyz:)

So, I found out he likes me too and he wasn`t mad mad, but he is jealous and sad. Which makes my feel like horrible person. FML.  But that`s not gonna stop me from going out with HIM:). I told him I was sorry and he said..... Nothing. Then it was silent the rest of the walk. Bummer.

Why do things have to hjghvk up:(?

Today was pretty good besides Tyler ignoring me. Everything else was great. Science was actually fun. We got these new toys and they look like cell phones, but they`re just response clickers. They do this new thing where they hook a test up from their computer to the smart board and you can take the test with the clicker. You just type in your answer and hit enter. it`s a lot of fun. HaHa. Then history class was fun. We do a weekly thing called clan. And you pretty much get into groups or clans and act like you`re a sumerian and trade resources and whatnot. it`s fun. Today we traded resources, it was just great.

It was a half day so we didn`t have lunch. But we still had gym. In my class we`re playing soccer. Almost all of my team had to play but me and my friend Dan didn`t. We sat on the bleachers and just talked until we were forced to play. Then when we were just about to play, we had to go. HaHaHaHa. It was hilarious:). I found out about a lot of things while we were talking. Kind of unexpected news actually.

OhMyGoodness......

Then the bus ride...oh my the bus ride.  The driver was getting mad at the kids in the back. The back is made up of My friends: Derek, Dustin, Colt, Cody, My brother, Wayne, and me. I didn`t do anything, but the rest of them were screaming and just being loud and rude..... And funny as WHAT.  She stopped the bus and walked back to us and yelled at us. She even called us the "B" word. But that was only because Cody called her that first. Ha. Wow. But she accused me of being bad.... then she said  didn`t do anything and said I shouldn`t be sitting where I`m sitting. Honestly? But Derek, Dustin, Cody, and my Brother are the only ones getting in trouble. 

I`m home now. Getting ready to do dishes and laundry, so I presume I`ll talk to you guys later:).
Baii<3

He Wasn`t Just Blind As a Bat.....[:

"It`s like he ate a dictionary and started throwing up words." -Jace from "City Of Ashes"(Book)

So I`m going out with him. I`m so happy:]. He`s so different from all the others. He`s a good different though. And I really like that different. It`s not so serious and doesn`t choke you. The day he asked me, I actually thought he was joking-Of course I thought that was mean and ignored him- But he stopped me in the hallway and promised me he was serious and reasked the question. As soon as he asked me the question again, I choked and could feel my face getting read. I felt like such an idiot for assuming... And for blushing infornt of him. But that just made me blush even more and them stumble when I walked away.

OhMyGoodness<3

Today was good. We moved onto a new sport in gym. Soccer. Joyous. I`m pretty good at soccer if I work my butt off. But it`s kind of hard to when all the guys just take the ball from you and show off. And they don`t care if you`re on their team or not. They`ll take the ball from you. Then they complain girls can`t play sport. It`s so frustrating. GAH. My gym teacher doesn`t help that fact either. She just sits and yells at kids who don`t saty in their zones. Blah Blah Blah. Gym would be alot more fun if the teachers actually participated as well and chilled a bit when it came to zones.
Science was kind of boring. All we did was flip a coin and write down if we got a heads or tail. Seems exciting doesnt it? SIKE. My partner, who is usually bouncing off the walls and very happy making, was so calm and awkward making..... It sucked.
By the time History rolled around I was done. But thankfully one of my dear friends were hyper, as usual:]. She`s so funny. She`s also the one who made up almost all of my weird nicknames. But I heart them all<3.

Last night my mother came home with a BIG brown box. And in that box were books. So many books. I loved it. Of course most of them were vampire, magic, paranormal. I loved it:]

NIGHT:]

I hope you`re just blind as a bat.....

"Clocks slay time... time is dead as long as it is being clicked off by little wheels; only when the clock stops does time come to life." -William Faulkner:]


You know when you like someone. So you flirt and they flirt back. And you kind of give signals that you like each other to one another. But They never ask you out or if you just want to hangout. It`s so frustrating. I can`t say that I hate it. I think it`s just them being nervous or waiting for you to say something to them. But you could never tell, so it get really annoying. But you could never ask them up front because you`re too scared you`ll be completely wrong. Then get embarrassed in front of your crush. Just the thought of that happening chokes me up. Alot of people tell me he likes me but I don`t think I believe them. 
I really wish it wasn`t like that. I REALLY like him. 
FML


I`m heading off to bed. I have a headache and really want to watch The Sound Of Music and Marry Poppins. Plus I have School tomorrow. 
Night lovelies:]<3


Chim Chim Cheree:]

I`d do anything to catch your attention:]

"And be grateful. Our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real." -Hannibal Lecter:]

Today was ok . I barely got anything done though. I think I did a little bit of french research, started on my task, and wrote my goals down. I guess that`s just more for me to do tomorrow. On top of what i have tomorrow. I have school tomorrow. But I get to see all my friends and the boy I like:]. School would be my favorite place if it wasn`t for so much work. I could handle a little work. We have to learn, I get it. But taking some of our rights away and teaching a group of thirty kids in the same way? I really doubt you`re gonna get anything out of it besides a few paychecks and the kick of writing kids up. My school is actually pretty stupid to be a house of smarts.  They interfere with your personal life, they`re too controlling, and they don`t know how to handle kids these days. Not saying I`m an expert on kids, but I have a pretty good idea what they want, need, and like.

Anyhoo... The plague is making its rounds around my house again. So me and my sister decided to shut ourselves up in her room. We have my laptop for music and entertainment, her T.V and a stack of DVDs and a bag of food. I think we`re heavily supplied for this attack of the sick monster. I do hope it doesn`t spread badly. I hate being sick and all, but my family. I hate it more when my family is sick. And when they get sick real badly. It makes me feel so bad. Especially when you had a huge fight with them not too long before they got sick. Makes me feel like a horrible person. So I try not to fight with them. At least not fight with my parents. I can`t help fighting with my brother. He`s so irritating. I just want to smack some common sense into him. Not that violence is the answerw, but sometimes it seems like it`s the only way to let people know.

I found this little thing-a-jing and thought it was funny.  You have to pick a music artist and then answer the following with a some by that artist. It really shows wheather or not you know as many songs as you thought. I really liked it. It was kind of challenging but it was so much fun:]. Try it. Repost it somewhere. Anywhere. It`s amazing:].

Pick Your Artist:
Emilie Autumn

Are you male or female?
female

Describe Yourself:
Red Rose

How do you feel:                                                                                                                                                     I want m innocence back

Describe where you currently live:
The Art Of Suicide

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:

Prologue: Across the sky

Your favorite form of transportation:
how strange

Your best friend is:
Juliet

What is Life to you:
Hollow

Your Fear:
Dead is the new alive

What is the best advice you have to give:
I know where you sleep.

How I would like to die:
Save You

My motto:
Let The Record Show

If you`ve been remembering, to still see pictures, you have to click on the titles of my blogs for now on. I don`t post pictures on my blog, but rather post quotes:]. It`s one of my favorite changes I made to my blog. I was so excited when it worked! I`ve tried to make this change before, but the links wouldn`t work so I just stopped trying for a while. I got it to work now and I`m so happy!

Listening to a new band I found today:]

To Kingdom Come by Passion Pit<3

YAY.

Death is a Promise....

"Someone to tell it to is one of the fundamental needs of human beings."  -Miles Franklin:]

So I went to bed after I posted last night. I feel not wide away, but a bit hyper. Or at least in a good mood. So today, I have a list of things to do. A lot of it is research, but then I have my goals.  Most people would look at goals and probably say that that would be a lot for a thirteen year old to work on. I wouldn`t know. I don`t know that many thirteen year olds who set goals for themselves and then try to reach them. Most of them would juts give up if it got too frustrating. I would too....but I`m going to keep pushing myself. 

Stuff to do today:

1) Take littlie to school

2) Do social studies project

3) research the french

4) clean room

5) research artlines/unusual hobies

6) Update all sites:]]

7) Udate blog:]

I`m gonna be a pretty busy bee. So if you decide to come over don`t worry about asking. My mom doesn`t care. Just walk through the door, yell your name, and we`ll chillax. 

I`m off to get ready....

I think I`m going to look into photography....

Just a tad though.

Listening to: Starry Eyed - Ellie Goudling

kilybai<3:]

Click HERE for a picture:]

"It is better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all."  -Unknown:[

I know it`s an ungodly hour, but I just cant seem to sleep. My eye lips feel so heavy  but every time I close them I feel wide awake. Like I could run a mile..... but I would probably never do that for fun.... at least not yet. My friend Kayla was suppose to sleep over as well, and she was here, had her bag and everything, but she started to feel sick and missed her mom. I felt so bad. Like I dragged her over here.... but we kinda planned this like  on the spot.
I`m thinking of starting to do something creative. Like starting an artline or  something. I want to do something unusual. Something most kids my age DON`T do. I have no clue what, so I think I`ll do some research tomorrow. Or later today. I`m not even sure there is such thing as an artline. Maybe it`s a line of art[teachers always say never define a word with the words]  that has a theme to it, or like it all revolves around one thing. Not sure, but it sound pretty good.
Tomorrow Kayla might be coming over. I HAVE to work on my task. I probably wont get it done until later tonight.  I got to stop doing that. Oh lovely...another goal to the list. I think I`m going to write al these down if I`m going to keep up with them. And I will. I want to. I need to get these down.
Honestly, I`m looking forward to tuesday. I want to see him badly and  I kinda need to hear his voice. I feel like it`s my fault he`s in trouble. Even though I know it`s not.  I just hope his parents weren`t too hard on him. He is only a kid-teenage boy- they do get in trouble alot, and do the wrong thing. That`s why parents are there to help them do what`s right
To be loving and caring, looking out for their child all the while. Oh listen to me....I sound like mother.  Not that I don`t love kids and all, but it sounds like I am a mom. Like I`m around them all the time. I`ve actually been told I`d be a great mom. Which, in all actuality, is kinda creepy. It`s like people are watching you, waiting for you to have you`re first child and just see how you handle it.  It`s so frusterating. Makes you want to scream and yell...... but I won`t. I don`t like screaming or yelling. It hurts my throat ,and I don`t think I have the guts to see the sad expression on someone`s face.

Black and Gold:]

“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.” -Unknown:[

I feel a change coming on. And I think I know what it is. It`s me not using pictures at the top of my blog anymore. OMFG is what you`re probably thinking. But do not fret. I`ll make the titles of my blogs links to pictures. But now I will be using quotes. Yes-quotes. Quotes about anything; from lyrics;from people around me and not. But I will only use them if they mean something to me, or they helped me through something. I`m doing changes little by little to my blog. And probably to everything else of mine. I`m cleaning out my grooveshark; Fixing my twitter; Changing my blog; and editing my Tumblr. Does all this changing mean something? Frankly... No. Its doesn`t mean anything. I just find new taste and add them to my life. I`m making goals for myself. Not goals that other people make for myself. If anything, I`m disgusted by people who have to COMPLETELY controlling. But I`m taking control of myself now. I know I`m just a youngster, but I feel i think big and act at least a bit maturer then most teenagers my age. I`m not taking that from people who`ve told me so, but from what i see in myself. Of course I will act my age at times. Of course I might angry over stupid things. I am only a young teen.
My Goals are:
1) Work on being calmer in bad situations
2) Work on getting grades up and focus on school a bit more
3) stay organized
4) Keep up with blog;twitter;deviantART; livejournal;ect.
5) work on learning acoustic guitar
6) research french language; study;learn
7) Work in grammar

There you have it. My goals. I know the second and third one come off more so as responsibility, but I do have to work on that area. The fifth and sixth one are a luxury and something I really want to do. I find the french language so pretty, and the acoustic guitar sounds much more beautiful them electric. The first one is something I`m not to worried about. I`ve been working on that goal for almost three years. I`ve almost perfected it, but who says you can`t always improve a bit more? The fourth goal is more so..... something I want to do. Not totally a luxury, but more of a self-prophecy. It seems silly probably, but that`s how I look at it. Finally, the seventh goal. Yes, I`m horrible grammar. I learned this talking to HIM (yes, I`m keeping that up). So I`m going to start by writing better grammar then talking it. I`m not sure how long all those goals will take me but I`m going to take my time with them, get the right, and balance them out so I don`t go full insane.

I will be updating my info sometime today. Not positive when, but mostlikely later tonight. Adding all my accounts; resources; webpages; and keep-ups.

Ta-ta for now lovelies:]

"What love really means..."

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'” -Unknown

So I don`t have an iPod anymore . . I`m not gonna say what happen because theres a good sode to it. So it kinda balances it out. He`s not as bad as people think. Everyone has there moments too so they shouldnt be talking. Jerks.

Supernatural By Flyleaf
This song is so amazing. I`m gonna learn it.Thats a promise.

Her headaches are constant,
Increasing in pain
With each passing day.
She can't even manage
To stand on her own, it's gotten so bad.

Now you think of saying
There's no use in praying.
And still, she bows her head.
So she can say
Thank You for just one more day.

Supernatural patience
Graces her face
And her voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of, never let go of

He has every reason to throw up his fists
In the face of his God
Who let his mother die.
Through all the prayers and tears,
She still passed in pain anyway.

Now you think of saying
There's no use in praying
And still, he bows his head.
So he can say
Thank You for ending her pain.

Supernatural patience
Graces his face
And his voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of.

Never let go of...

He is teaching me...
What love really means...

Supernatural patience
Graces his face
And his voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of.
Yes it's Supernatural patience
Graces his face
And his voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of. Never let go of

He is teaching me...
What love really means...

So my mother wouldnt stop telling me how gracous and mature I was about it all when I found out and when he came over. She said I didnt respond like a normal teenager would and that a normal teenager would have freaked out. But I didnt feel the need to. I didnt want to scream, or cause a seen. And I don`t want to say that I know he had enough from his parents ,because I don`t. I`m not him nor am I his parents. I didn`t really think it was as a big a deal, at least not for me. When my mom told me, I was just as calm as when i was holding my baby cusion. Who is super adorable:]. But I felt bad. Don`t ask me why, I have no clue. But I did.