I`ve had this song stuck in my head for three days now<3

Dead is the new alive
Despair's the new survival
A pointless point of view
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

Dead is the new alive
Life's only living rival
A casket built for two
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

So take me now or take me never
I won't wait
You're already late
So say goodbye or say forever
Choose your fate
How else can we survive?
Dead is the new alive

Dead is the new alive
A gothic play revival
The last act of the show
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

So take me now or take me never
I won't wait
You're already late
So say goodbye or say forever
Choose your fate
How else can we survive?
Dead is the new alive

What is day without a blessed night?
And what is peace without a blessed fight?
What is the day without a blessed night?
And what is peace without a blessed, blessed, blessed fight?

A quick taste of the poison
A quick twist of the knife
When the obsession with death
The obsession with death becomes a way of life

A quick taste of the poison
A quick twist of the knife
When the obsession with death
The obsession with death becomes a way of life

Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Dead is the new alive
Alive, alive, alive
Dead is the new alive
Alive, alive, alive
Alive
Dead is the new alive
Alive
Dead is the new alive

Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive


Dead is the new alive by Emilie Autumn(:

Save The Last Dance For Me(:

So I`ve been uploading some work up on my deviantART. Check it out: http://s4mm.deviantart.com/

Once I get a camera...the camera I put on my christmas list hopefully... I`ll be able to experiment with landscapes and other people and such. I`m really hoping I get that camera. So keep your fingers crossed for me please! I`ve also been working on a drawing, which I rarely do anymore. I guess Jazz does that to you. And I`ve been listening to alot of jazz lately. Many Frank Sinatra, but still. i`m not even sure he`s considered Jazz.
I was talking to my friend John about the music I showed him and he told me he was listening to it at his house, and his mom called him a psycho for listening to that band( We Butter The Bread With Butter). hey aren`t that crazy. Just german screamo/metal. They`re wicked awesome. I want to see them in concert!!!
I have The Reason by Hoobastank stuck in my head. it`s a really good song though(:

How Do Different Genres Of Music Affect The Pulse Of A Human?

Have you ever wanted to break down and cry, give up, but didn't know why.

I hate mice. I really do. And I`m not one for hating, but these rodents are getting on my last nerve. Sure they were fine when you only saw them once in a while. But now. Oh my goodness, I want to rip my hair out. But if I do that, I`ll be ripping out by beautiful and newly dyed hair. Blonde bangs, red glazed, and bright red underneath. Anyhoo, back to the mouse problem. I want them all gone. I`ll wake up to then scratching at my walls. Now I live in a very old, unsettled, and thrown together house. I hate it. Well not entirely, because it`s big and pretty, and has nice workmanship. But it`s not insalated, or how ever you spell it, it`s freezing during the winter, except for my room, which is like africa at the moment, and its blistering hot during the summer. Except for my room, which will be like winter. My room is the only liveable room in my house at the moment. The mice thing started about a year ago. And like I said, it wasn`t as big of a deal as it is now. They would rarely be seen and almost never bothered you. But at the year went on, they got worse. There`s a bunch of them, you hear them all hours of the day/night, walking , they wake you up, they pop up under your feet. It`s just soooooo annoying. And I`m too scared to just kill one on the spot. And the traps I`m terrified of. I`m always scared that it`s gonna snap shut on m fingers when I`m taking the mice off of it. I hate mice. I want them gone, dead, and out of my house. I`m taking this matter up with my mother. I will write her a strongly worded letter-or just give her a massive lecture, though I`m not good at the-, I will give her evidence-though she has heard and seen these little monsters-, and I will explain what must be done and how much it will cost her. I mean, I have a baby sister. Four years old, going on five. She`s still very vulnerable to germs and their affects. So what if one bites her? I wouldn`t doubt that the medical bill would cost more then to just to hire someone to get ride of them. Sure, they make shots that are suppose to help fight them, but they don`t always work.
All a vanccine is, is just a dead-er version of the virise it`s fighting against. Once that vaccine is in your body, the brain will take a picture of it, and will automatically kill the vaccine, because it`s a virus. But you see how people have died who got the vaccine, compared to people who`ve lived and haven`t gotten the vaccine. This is because the snie flu virus DNA or germ, is different. It`s constantly changing. Doctors only have one or two types of the germ in the vaccine. Your body will know how to fight against ONLY those types of germs. Meaning, that when or if people get swine flu and they`ve goten the vaccine, they`re more likely to die then to live, because they MIGHT get a different type of germ(s) and the body won`t know how t handle it or fight against it. Causing the person to get horribly sick and you know the rest. Now, I`m only going by recent studies. I could be wrong by the time you get this, or I could be right. But vaccines and viruses are like this only with the swine flu, they`re like this with almost all viruses and such. But doctors have identified ninety-nine percent of a viruses germs, and have put them together in the vaccine. This is also why you need to update your shots every so often, because the vaccine is killed off and has to be updated with the brain, so your body can stay healthy and fight AGAINST the virus.
Like I said, I hate mice. want them D-E-A-D.

Click on the title of this blog and you`ll see the most strangest picture in history. I mean, it`s pretty awesome who ever did it, but it is just SOOOOOOO odd. When I first say it, I did`t know what to think. Weather to be scared, laugh, think it was normal for a sick minded human being. I wasn`t sure. So I used it(:
HopeYouLikeIt(:<3

Click HERE for a picture:]

".....We`re under the sheets and you`re killing me. In our house made of paper, your words roll over me...." -Under the sheets by Ellie Goudling.

So if you click the title of this blog you can see one of my deviants. I have a lot more. Just click my name and then click gallery on my page.
HopeYouLikeIt(:

 I have a new favorite song. It`s by Coldplay. Of course. Haa. But its an original: Lovers in Japan. But it`s acoustic! I heart acoustic songs very much. I just think acoustic songs are so much prettier. But I found it today and I can`t stop listening to it. At least for now. I`ll probably get sick of it sooner or later.

I have a favor to ask whoever reads this and/or looks at my works on deviantART.com. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment on my pictures. I really want to know what people think of them. Once I get my scanner up and running, I`ll upload my drawings. But until then, I can only use my PC`s camera. So it`s kind of hard to do portraits of other people or things. Sorry.

Please and thank you so very very much(:



Yesterday was my stepdad`s birthday. He is now thirty four minus one(: My mom couldn`t fins another three candle for the cake ,so she put a thirty four, a minus sign-made of a sideways one candle-, and a one candle. My mother is so silly. But I love her to death. No matter how mad-making she gets<3 My sister and I picked a card out for him and it was a pickle. It was so funny. 


I was sitting on the couch, waiting for everyone to get here for the birthday gathering-cause it wasn`t much of a party-, I started thinking of a character. And that character started to speak to another character. Soon enough I had a story going. It has vampires and magic and romance, and I`m thinking I should finish my other story before I even start on this one. Ahaa. 


Today I`m going to church. I miss everyone there(: Even though I don`t know all of them, I love them all. They`re such good people, and they`re a lot of fun to be around. Hilarious, caring people. Ah, I love them! 
I`m also gonna see Timmy. My big brother-not really but that`s how close we are-. I haven`t seen him since August. Which is a really long time. I missed his birthday too. I feel really bad about that. I was gonna call him, but I couldn`t find his number. I was gonna tell him at church, but he didn`t show up. So I completely forgot about it all until a week ago. So I`m going to sing to him when, or if, I see him today. If I don`t see him I think I just might cry. He`s I think twenty now. I don`t remember. But either way, he`s still my big brother and I love him(:
I also have to go to Derek`s house today and drop off his camera, which he left at my house since June! But he lives right up the street. Now that I think about it, I could`ve dropped it off way earlier then now. Couldda, wouldda, shouldda I guess. Ahaa. 


I was talking to my grandfather Olinda-mother`s side of the family- about photography, and how I want to do portrait photography. He wants to too! How wonderful is that? He was telling me camera suggestions, tips, about his first camera. It was a deep conversation. I was deeply into it too. We both were. We actually talk for about an hour and a half, and didn`t notice it was quiet until he pointed out Daniel-my adorable and favorite littlie- was smiling at me. It was hilarious! My grandfather is a lot better at photography then he gives himself credit for. I saw a black and white photo he took of my mother when she was my a little older then my baby sister`s age. It was amazing. She also looked a lot like I did when I was that old, maybe younger. INSANE. I`ve actually seen a lot of the pictures he`s done, and they`re all amazing. It`s really inspiring. 
I real serious about this whole photography thing. I really want to do it. I`ve seen some amazing work of art. That includes painting and drawings. But I think photography is prettier. Because you`re catching a moment in time. A moment that won`t look different. There won`t be another moment like that one. It will always be an original. It`s a memory.You can also show your feelings or thoughts through photography. It`s an escape. I love it.

Who Ever Said Nightmares Couldn`t Come True?

"All around me are familiar faces, some worn out faces...." -Mad World by Dark By Design:)

He broke up with me. But he had a GOOD reason. Reasons I should say.  I agree with the second reason though. Sadly. But we`re friends now. He kinda broke the tension because he said "Thanks for taking it so well, most girls wouldn`t have. Haha." I wasn`t as sad. I was actually in a daze when he told me, so I didn`t really worry about it.
Job shadowing was yesterday. I went to my elementry school, ad got to hangout with a class of fourth graders. Fourth graders are so violent! I was watching my friend John take the class he as shadowing out, and this one kid got kicked in the face and got sent to the nurses office while the other kid kept playing. GEEZ. Then, at lunch, I was sitting with my class and this kid was showing me his toy cars. He was playing with them when the boy next to him asked him, nicely, to stop. Then everything when nuts. The car-kid yelled at him and started throwing his cars at the boy next to him. I wanted to do something, but I was too shocked to move.  I was so surprised little kids were so violent. I mean, I have a four -soon to be five- year old sister, and she isn`t anything near as violent as these wee ones were.  So I decided to tell a teacher and then sit with Zac`s little sister. She`s so funny. She sits at a table of girls -I guess boys and girls had a territory line to follow- , and her friends are so... Oh what`s a good word.... Grown up. Except for one, but she`s HILARIOUS. 
The bus ride there and back, I sat with my friend John, and we listened to his mp3 player. He has  a lot of good music. We pretty much listen to the same type of music. A lot of the same bands too. Anyhoo, I sat with him and our friend Josh, and we all just cracked jokes and listened to music. The other ids were loud and sang to their our music. And on the way back, since Josh didn`t go to the same place as John and I did, we had to sit with someone else. Someone who wasn`t as exciting. Ahaa:). But we ended up getting the three seater to ourselves and we listened to John`s music, yet again, and talked about music and concerts. I supposably going to a free concert for i think Job for a cowboy and a bunch of other bands. I`m not sure. It`s next year, over the summer.
Well, I have a scial studies project due tomorrow.
Bai:)

He`s Never Seen Hannibal Lector.. OhMyGoodness:)

"Maybe, just once, someone will call me 'Sir' without adding, 'You're making a scene.'" -Homer Simpson:)


       I went to Zac`s house last night. It was interesting, I`ll admit. But it was fun. More then half the night I was laughing:). The other half we were trying to figure out what to do. Ahaa. He lives on a small street far away from a lot of his friends. Sadly, we couldn`t do any part of my project because I didn`t have all of the playlist or a stopwatch. Oh well. I guess we`ll have to try it some other time:). My mom said that now he has to come to our house. Ahaa.  After my mom came to pick me up, which was at eight thirty, we went to my grandparents. We were only suppose to be there for ten minutes. But as always, I found my way to the piano and started playing and experimenting with the new toy my grandpa got.  Then I set the toy to an electric toy box-ish sound, and hit the strings button on the piano-which IS electric-, and then my Grandpa and I started to make an amazing sound. I was having alot of fun. Then my grandpa called me and started asking me about Zac:). She`s like, "what`s he like? Details. I need details!" Ahaa. She asked me what color hair, how tall, does he play any instruments, ect., and I was laughing the whole time. I didn`t know how she knew about him, but then again, Grandma knows all:)<3. 
       I recently realized that I haven`t done my hundred and one truths in forever. So Today I`m dedicating part myself to that. The other parts of me go to homework, research, and a party for my family. I`m dreading the homework part, but everything else seems bubbly. 




WellIBetterGetToItThen(:
Baii<3

Red Apples Tastes Like Red Wine:)

"Do me a favor.... Call me jerk one more time." -Jerk by New Boyz:)

So, I found out he likes me too and he wasn`t mad mad, but he is jealous and sad. Which makes my feel like horrible person. FML.  But that`s not gonna stop me from going out with HIM:). I told him I was sorry and he said..... Nothing. Then it was silent the rest of the walk. Bummer.

Why do things have to hjghvk up:(?

Today was pretty good besides Tyler ignoring me. Everything else was great. Science was actually fun. We got these new toys and they look like cell phones, but they`re just response clickers. They do this new thing where they hook a test up from their computer to the smart board and you can take the test with the clicker. You just type in your answer and hit enter. it`s a lot of fun. HaHa. Then history class was fun. We do a weekly thing called clan. And you pretty much get into groups or clans and act like you`re a sumerian and trade resources and whatnot. it`s fun. Today we traded resources, it was just great.

It was a half day so we didn`t have lunch. But we still had gym. In my class we`re playing soccer. Almost all of my team had to play but me and my friend Dan didn`t. We sat on the bleachers and just talked until we were forced to play. Then when we were just about to play, we had to go. HaHaHaHa. It was hilarious:). I found out about a lot of things while we were talking. Kind of unexpected news actually.

OhMyGoodness......

Then the bus ride...oh my the bus ride.  The driver was getting mad at the kids in the back. The back is made up of My friends: Derek, Dustin, Colt, Cody, My brother, Wayne, and me. I didn`t do anything, but the rest of them were screaming and just being loud and rude..... And funny as WHAT.  She stopped the bus and walked back to us and yelled at us. She even called us the "B" word. But that was only because Cody called her that first. Ha. Wow. But she accused me of being bad.... then she said  didn`t do anything and said I shouldn`t be sitting where I`m sitting. Honestly? But Derek, Dustin, Cody, and my Brother are the only ones getting in trouble. 

I`m home now. Getting ready to do dishes and laundry, so I presume I`ll talk to you guys later:).
Baii<3

He Wasn`t Just Blind As a Bat.....[:

"It`s like he ate a dictionary and started throwing up words." -Jace from "City Of Ashes"(Book)

So I`m going out with him. I`m so happy:]. He`s so different from all the others. He`s a good different though. And I really like that different. It`s not so serious and doesn`t choke you. The day he asked me, I actually thought he was joking-Of course I thought that was mean and ignored him- But he stopped me in the hallway and promised me he was serious and reasked the question. As soon as he asked me the question again, I choked and could feel my face getting read. I felt like such an idiot for assuming... And for blushing infornt of him. But that just made me blush even more and them stumble when I walked away.

OhMyGoodness<3

Today was good. We moved onto a new sport in gym. Soccer. Joyous. I`m pretty good at soccer if I work my butt off. But it`s kind of hard to when all the guys just take the ball from you and show off. And they don`t care if you`re on their team or not. They`ll take the ball from you. Then they complain girls can`t play sport. It`s so frustrating. GAH. My gym teacher doesn`t help that fact either. She just sits and yells at kids who don`t saty in their zones. Blah Blah Blah. Gym would be alot more fun if the teachers actually participated as well and chilled a bit when it came to zones.
Science was kind of boring. All we did was flip a coin and write down if we got a heads or tail. Seems exciting doesnt it? SIKE. My partner, who is usually bouncing off the walls and very happy making, was so calm and awkward making..... It sucked.
By the time History rolled around I was done. But thankfully one of my dear friends were hyper, as usual:]. She`s so funny. She`s also the one who made up almost all of my weird nicknames. But I heart them all<3.

Last night my mother came home with a BIG brown box. And in that box were books. So many books. I loved it. Of course most of them were vampire, magic, paranormal. I loved it:]

NIGHT:]

I hope you`re just blind as a bat.....

"Clocks slay time... time is dead as long as it is being clicked off by little wheels; only when the clock stops does time come to life." -William Faulkner:]


You know when you like someone. So you flirt and they flirt back. And you kind of give signals that you like each other to one another. But They never ask you out or if you just want to hangout. It`s so frustrating. I can`t say that I hate it. I think it`s just them being nervous or waiting for you to say something to them. But you could never tell, so it get really annoying. But you could never ask them up front because you`re too scared you`ll be completely wrong. Then get embarrassed in front of your crush. Just the thought of that happening chokes me up. Alot of people tell me he likes me but I don`t think I believe them. 
I really wish it wasn`t like that. I REALLY like him. 
FML


I`m heading off to bed. I have a headache and really want to watch The Sound Of Music and Marry Poppins. Plus I have School tomorrow. 
Night lovelies:]<3


Chim Chim Cheree:]

I`d do anything to catch your attention:]

"And be grateful. Our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real." -Hannibal Lecter:]

Today was ok . I barely got anything done though. I think I did a little bit of french research, started on my task, and wrote my goals down. I guess that`s just more for me to do tomorrow. On top of what i have tomorrow. I have school tomorrow. But I get to see all my friends and the boy I like:]. School would be my favorite place if it wasn`t for so much work. I could handle a little work. We have to learn, I get it. But taking some of our rights away and teaching a group of thirty kids in the same way? I really doubt you`re gonna get anything out of it besides a few paychecks and the kick of writing kids up. My school is actually pretty stupid to be a house of smarts.  They interfere with your personal life, they`re too controlling, and they don`t know how to handle kids these days. Not saying I`m an expert on kids, but I have a pretty good idea what they want, need, and like.

Anyhoo... The plague is making its rounds around my house again. So me and my sister decided to shut ourselves up in her room. We have my laptop for music and entertainment, her T.V and a stack of DVDs and a bag of food. I think we`re heavily supplied for this attack of the sick monster. I do hope it doesn`t spread badly. I hate being sick and all, but my family. I hate it more when my family is sick. And when they get sick real badly. It makes me feel so bad. Especially when you had a huge fight with them not too long before they got sick. Makes me feel like a horrible person. So I try not to fight with them. At least not fight with my parents. I can`t help fighting with my brother. He`s so irritating. I just want to smack some common sense into him. Not that violence is the answerw, but sometimes it seems like it`s the only way to let people know.

I found this little thing-a-jing and thought it was funny.  You have to pick a music artist and then answer the following with a some by that artist. It really shows wheather or not you know as many songs as you thought. I really liked it. It was kind of challenging but it was so much fun:]. Try it. Repost it somewhere. Anywhere. It`s amazing:].

Pick Your Artist:
Emilie Autumn

Are you male or female?
female

Describe Yourself:
Red Rose

How do you feel:                                                                                                                                                     I want m innocence back

Describe where you currently live:
The Art Of Suicide

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:

Prologue: Across the sky

Your favorite form of transportation:
how strange

Your best friend is:
Juliet

What is Life to you:
Hollow

Your Fear:
Dead is the new alive

What is the best advice you have to give:
I know where you sleep.

How I would like to die:
Save You

My motto:
Let The Record Show

If you`ve been remembering, to still see pictures, you have to click on the titles of my blogs for now on. I don`t post pictures on my blog, but rather post quotes:]. It`s one of my favorite changes I made to my blog. I was so excited when it worked! I`ve tried to make this change before, but the links wouldn`t work so I just stopped trying for a while. I got it to work now and I`m so happy!

Listening to a new band I found today:]

To Kingdom Come by Passion Pit<3

YAY.

Death is a Promise....

"Someone to tell it to is one of the fundamental needs of human beings."  -Miles Franklin:]

So I went to bed after I posted last night. I feel not wide away, but a bit hyper. Or at least in a good mood. So today, I have a list of things to do. A lot of it is research, but then I have my goals.  Most people would look at goals and probably say that that would be a lot for a thirteen year old to work on. I wouldn`t know. I don`t know that many thirteen year olds who set goals for themselves and then try to reach them. Most of them would juts give up if it got too frustrating. I would too....but I`m going to keep pushing myself. 

Stuff to do today:

1) Take littlie to school

2) Do social studies project

3) research the french

4) clean room

5) research artlines/unusual hobies

6) Update all sites:]]

7) Udate blog:]

I`m gonna be a pretty busy bee. So if you decide to come over don`t worry about asking. My mom doesn`t care. Just walk through the door, yell your name, and we`ll chillax. 

I`m off to get ready....

I think I`m going to look into photography....

Just a tad though.

Listening to: Starry Eyed - Ellie Goudling

kilybai<3:]

Click HERE for a picture:]

"It is better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all."  -Unknown:[

I know it`s an ungodly hour, but I just cant seem to sleep. My eye lips feel so heavy  but every time I close them I feel wide awake. Like I could run a mile..... but I would probably never do that for fun.... at least not yet. My friend Kayla was suppose to sleep over as well, and she was here, had her bag and everything, but she started to feel sick and missed her mom. I felt so bad. Like I dragged her over here.... but we kinda planned this like  on the spot.
I`m thinking of starting to do something creative. Like starting an artline or  something. I want to do something unusual. Something most kids my age DON`T do. I have no clue what, so I think I`ll do some research tomorrow. Or later today. I`m not even sure there is such thing as an artline. Maybe it`s a line of art[teachers always say never define a word with the words]  that has a theme to it, or like it all revolves around one thing. Not sure, but it sound pretty good.
Tomorrow Kayla might be coming over. I HAVE to work on my task. I probably wont get it done until later tonight.  I got to stop doing that. Oh lovely...another goal to the list. I think I`m going to write al these down if I`m going to keep up with them. And I will. I want to. I need to get these down.
Honestly, I`m looking forward to tuesday. I want to see him badly and  I kinda need to hear his voice. I feel like it`s my fault he`s in trouble. Even though I know it`s not.  I just hope his parents weren`t too hard on him. He is only a kid-teenage boy- they do get in trouble alot, and do the wrong thing. That`s why parents are there to help them do what`s right
To be loving and caring, looking out for their child all the while. Oh listen to me....I sound like mother.  Not that I don`t love kids and all, but it sounds like I am a mom. Like I`m around them all the time. I`ve actually been told I`d be a great mom. Which, in all actuality, is kinda creepy. It`s like people are watching you, waiting for you to have you`re first child and just see how you handle it.  It`s so frusterating. Makes you want to scream and yell...... but I won`t. I don`t like screaming or yelling. It hurts my throat ,and I don`t think I have the guts to see the sad expression on someone`s face.

Black and Gold:]

“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.” -Unknown:[

I feel a change coming on. And I think I know what it is. It`s me not using pictures at the top of my blog anymore. OMFG is what you`re probably thinking. But do not fret. I`ll make the titles of my blogs links to pictures. But now I will be using quotes. Yes-quotes. Quotes about anything; from lyrics;from people around me and not. But I will only use them if they mean something to me, or they helped me through something. I`m doing changes little by little to my blog. And probably to everything else of mine. I`m cleaning out my grooveshark; Fixing my twitter; Changing my blog; and editing my Tumblr. Does all this changing mean something? Frankly... No. Its doesn`t mean anything. I just find new taste and add them to my life. I`m making goals for myself. Not goals that other people make for myself. If anything, I`m disgusted by people who have to COMPLETELY controlling. But I`m taking control of myself now. I know I`m just a youngster, but I feel i think big and act at least a bit maturer then most teenagers my age. I`m not taking that from people who`ve told me so, but from what i see in myself. Of course I will act my age at times. Of course I might angry over stupid things. I am only a young teen.
My Goals are:
1) Work on being calmer in bad situations
2) Work on getting grades up and focus on school a bit more
3) stay organized
4) Keep up with blog;twitter;deviantART; livejournal;ect.
5) work on learning acoustic guitar
6) research french language; study;learn
7) Work in grammar

There you have it. My goals. I know the second and third one come off more so as responsibility, but I do have to work on that area. The fifth and sixth one are a luxury and something I really want to do. I find the french language so pretty, and the acoustic guitar sounds much more beautiful them electric. The first one is something I`m not to worried about. I`ve been working on that goal for almost three years. I`ve almost perfected it, but who says you can`t always improve a bit more? The fourth goal is more so..... something I want to do. Not totally a luxury, but more of a self-prophecy. It seems silly probably, but that`s how I look at it. Finally, the seventh goal. Yes, I`m horrible grammar. I learned this talking to HIM (yes, I`m keeping that up). So I`m going to start by writing better grammar then talking it. I`m not sure how long all those goals will take me but I`m going to take my time with them, get the right, and balance them out so I don`t go full insane.

I will be updating my info sometime today. Not positive when, but mostlikely later tonight. Adding all my accounts; resources; webpages; and keep-ups.

Ta-ta for now lovelies:]

"What love really means..."

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'” -Unknown

So I don`t have an iPod anymore . . I`m not gonna say what happen because theres a good sode to it. So it kinda balances it out. He`s not as bad as people think. Everyone has there moments too so they shouldnt be talking. Jerks.

Supernatural By Flyleaf
This song is so amazing. I`m gonna learn it.Thats a promise.

Her headaches are constant,
Increasing in pain
With each passing day.
She can't even manage
To stand on her own, it's gotten so bad.

Now you think of saying
There's no use in praying.
And still, she bows her head.
So she can say
Thank You for just one more day.

Supernatural patience
Graces her face
And her voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of, never let go of

He has every reason to throw up his fists
In the face of his God
Who let his mother die.
Through all the prayers and tears,
She still passed in pain anyway.

Now you think of saying
There's no use in praying
And still, he bows his head.
So he can say
Thank You for ending her pain.

Supernatural patience
Graces his face
And his voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of.

Never let go of...

He is teaching me...
What love really means...

Supernatural patience
Graces his face
And his voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of.
Yes it's Supernatural patience
Graces his face
And his voice never raises.
All because of a love
Never let go of. Never let go of

He is teaching me...
What love really means...

So my mother wouldnt stop telling me how gracous and mature I was about it all when I found out and when he came over. She said I didnt respond like a normal teenager would and that a normal teenager would have freaked out. But I didnt feel the need to. I didnt want to scream, or cause a seen. And I don`t want to say that I know he had enough from his parents ,because I don`t. I`m not him nor am I his parents. I didn`t really think it was as a big a deal, at least not for me. When my mom told me, I was just as calm as when i was holding my baby cusion. Who is super adorable:]. But I felt bad. Don`t ask me why, I have no clue. But I did.

Black and White With Glitter and Feathers. Im So Hyped:]

"I guess you are right. I am afriad. I am afraid to put my guard down. I am afriad that if you know all that i am, you wont feel the same. And I`m afraid that once my barrier is defeated and im comfortable, that you`ll walk away...."

I don`t know why im getting so excited now, I still have almost four months. But HE`s gonna be my date. And it`s semi-formal so he has to wear a tux, and black looks really good on him so thats not a probalem. At least not for me;] Of course that also means I have to wear a dress. But I found a black and white one at Deb. It`s soo pretty. The skirt part is white and has ruffles or waves at the trim/edge. The top part. The part that covers your chest....hehe....Its white with lace infront of it. Its also like scrunchy so it looks super adorable:] The straps are spaghetti straps and theres a black band that goes around it with a silver ring in the middle:] I`m gonna wear that with my hair in curls and ballet flats. I have no clue why im planning this all out NOW. I have FOUR months to go. Wow im so strange.
My mask is gonna be wildly awesome. Its gonna be black with white glittery designs. Which i will create. And its gonna be a tie on mask, so i dont have to hold it all day...night:]
Today was ok. I gave HIM a note that ive been wanting to give him since sixth grade. He wrote me back. I read it. My heart rate got faster and i still have butterflies:]

Im Lost Without You
By Blink-182

I swear that I can go on forever, again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips, and with one kiss we begin

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am,
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now?
I can hear footsteps, I'm dreaming
And if you will keep me from waking, to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you...
I'm lost without you...
I'm lost without you...
I'm lost without you..
I'm lost without you...

Lovely Poet He Was Indeed:]

It`s not the original video but this one is just as adorable:]
Everytime I hear this song I think of being in the arms of a lover, it`s snowing out, and I`m just walking down a path with him. It just makes me smile and blush, like the thoughyt of it NEVER gets old. But of course.....i doubt that would ever happen to me. Dreams dont have any luck with me....never did...probably never will. But dreaming is just a nice.....sometimes.

Today i was hyper. I was still pumped from the night before. The school halloween bash/dance. I was leaning against the wall with my friend John and he`s like " Rap music isn`t my thing, i can`t dance to it. Metal music and moshing...now thats MYYYY thing." I couldn`t help but laugh. So i got him out on the dance floor and taught him some moves. Not saying i no how to dance...honestly i dont but i just did what everyone else was doing. Ahaa. He started doing the electric slide and i was like "YES! you got it....." And then he started headbanging and screaming. Once again i was laughing.
This kid Newt....yea he`s my science partner. He`s like "We should do a movie!!!" He was jumping in his seat and whatnot. So sunday im gonna ask my dad if i can visit him and make our project[the movie] on his laptop and then perfect it. I personally think the movie`s gonna be AMAZING and HILARIOUS. He`s so funny....and we have an IDEA of how we`re gonna make the movie. I know I`m gonna use signs and speak as little as possible:] Im just cool like thatXD
I`m going to my dad`s this weekend. Halloween is tomorrow so my daddy`s thinking about taking us up to a haunted corn feild or halloween festival in Millville. It`s gonna be interesting.
I`m eating a cherry Tootsie Pop. Yummy in my tummy. Out of everyone in my grade....me and a few other people can`t take our laptops home:[ I never got the contract signed so i cant take it home until monday. BOOOOOOOOO.
Well.....imma go and pack for my daddy`s:]
Twitter> SammyOhMy
Stay updatedXD

Intense. Click Here:]

The smoke clears and in whispering waves of self-mutilation I can see the dark sky fall to pieces.
The world is sometimes too heavy to breath and the dead surround me like an ocean.
I can’t recognize the reflection looking back through the mirror.
I only grasp the concept of what it’s like to walk through life with a stranger holding a knife to my neck.
The empty shell of a shattered boy I know possess is my new skin.
Pain is my only horizon, hate, is my only form of flattery, ugly is the world around me and nowhere beyond the infinite infrastructure of the eternal lonely soul can my blackened heart be found.
If you want a glimpse of torment and bittersweet visions delight, I’ll gladly cut my head off so you can look down the hole.
Nothing there will bring the joyful bliss you crave.
Drinking lighter fluid to start a fire inside my guts, I am on a slow painful ride through the underbelly of hell and I wont mind if this is where we say goodbye and go our separate ways.

I am inside of you.
Living and breathing.

I am William Control

"This world wouldn`t be the same without you." B.S

"Be yourself" is about the worst advice you can give some people.

~Tom Masson

I hate when people tell you one thing, and theyre devoted to what they said. Until YOU make a choice THEY don`t like. Then they get mad at you and you have nothing to say because you didnt EXPECT this to happen. It`s like they like you... Until you make, say, or do the wrong thing. I mean, I can understand some things, but seriously. Telling him I love him was a waste of breath.

Lies, cheats, and fake all mixed with your venom filled words. You smeared them here, across my face. I only stood and let it happen, therefore, I have no one but myself to blame. I love you still, though I don`t know why? Perhaps it`s because of how you cake sugar onto the evil words that escape your lips. Or maybe, yet I am baffled by this, it is how you appear. As if you are wise, harmless, honest. I know now, your skin is dead. You are dead to me. I trust you, but only parts of you. You say your heart beats pure and free of guilty. That is a falsehood. You know what you do. You know why you do it all. Saying you mean every word... Ever word you`ve said. Lies. All lies. You have many sides. Some show off more then others, scaring off the good in you, causing it to hide in dark corners, never being able to be found. Causing them to slowly disappear. I`ve lied to your face. I`ll shall admit. I`m filled to the brim with guilt, and my dreams have become wicked because of it. I love you, yes. As a person. I love how you handle things, how you react to things. But you`re becoming fake. Making it hard for me to have a reason to love you. I can barely keep up with you anymore. You are always willing to get. And occasionally give. But, you don`t have enough heart to be giving away. You were born with only ONE heart. Sharing something that size can be tough. Just stop this madness. Stop being forged. Stop molding yourself into something you`re not, when you can be so much more.

..."Just Lies."
<3

Banana Colada:]

"Death is a Promise...."

HE left me. I guess he history haunted me and i couldnt believe him when he said it wasn`t true. But it`s what he wanted and what made him happy...so its on the good side...kinda. But we`re still friends, we`re still going trick or treating unless something pops up for one of us. I dont know.
[19:27] s4mm dee: purple hippos?
[19:27] block: what?
[19:27] s4mm dee: idk
[19:28] s4mm dee: guess what
[19:28] block: what
[19:28] s4mm dee: i had blue moutian dew for the first time
[19:28] block: good?
[19:28] s4mm dee: yess
:]<3^
I miss those conversations. They dont happen as often as they did. Only when we`re both hyper or in a really good mood. It makes me sad....but im coping...im trying to think he doesnt care so i can handle it better...but he does and it makes it worse. Don`t get me wrong, i love him and would love being friends with him. But sometimes....i can`t handle it. Some would say it jealousy, but i don`t think so because even whens single...it hurts.

http://twitpic.com/kfa6h
^Aha...thats a great photo..blacka nd white[a classic]. I actually didnt want to be in this picture, but he kinda pulled me in it. It tunred out good though, so I`m happy:]

The first song on my blog[the page your reading this on] is stuck in my head. Its odd too, because i NEVER listen to this stuff unless im with my bestie or my mom wont let me change the station. Aha. Wow.

It was HIS first football game...[:

Does anyone know when 'Where The Wild Things Are' comes out? I want to see it rather badly. Aha...it was my FAVORITE book when i was a littlie...kinda still is. Hah. Serious face; i wanna see it and i NEED to know the date of it... so when you have a clue when it comes out....im thinking you should let me in on the buzz:]kthnxlove:P

So there was a football game last night for the Groves highschool Brah:] I went...HE came....its was fun....my daddy met him...i was excited. Of course there was some crap that went down....but its blew over.To much amazement and not enough words.

So i found a new costume..im still gonna be a pirate....but a different pirate...I thinks its cute..but i like the other one better:[. Red...and black....ok seperate, jusut not together..in my opinion at least. I gues ill just have to deal. Which i can..so no worries.Hah.

ITS OCTOBERTHIRD!!!
Twenty-eight more days until Halloween nukka. Im hyped/stoked out the butt for this man. L-O-L. i made a funny. I`m still go trick or treating with HIM..so it`ll be fun:]

Schedule:
-showaaaa/get ready
-chill a bit
-pack
-leave for MOUNTAIN VALLLEY
-hike a bit
-come home[not before going to starbucks]
-aim
-sleepXD


TTYL....<3:]

I hate the Sick Monster:|

So I'm at home, not at school. Where I should be. But I'm sick. I got attacked by the sick monster. I think my sister gave him to me. Blaaa. And at school is the only place I get to see my love. And I miss him. It sucks. But Friday I'll feel better ,hopefully. The makeup work, the annoying teachers and the people. Holycrap! My classes are GER-ATE. I have almost all of them with caleb so when we're bored we make jokes and work on our numberland.
Our numberland=love and fun:] I'll post all the numbers we have so far later or tomorrow. It's amazing. We just take numbers and make then do something, make them a person, date, or just a random thought. Yes we memorize them, we have most of them in order, but we skip around ALOT. HaHa:] Alot of them are inside jokes we have with eachother or other people. It's so funny.

Schedule:
-Bum around
-Go with mum and bro to dentist
-Bum around a bit more
-Get hair cut
-Clean room
-Convience mum to let me get spiderbites:]
^ I doubt it'll work. It's worth a try thought.

I Know It`s early:]

1. Sammy Adicity
2. twitter->SammyOhMy<-
3. I listen to music ALOT.
4. i cry when im frustrated.
5. pinky promises are what i do
6. I have a new favorite band.
7. I hate silence.
8. Love is the devil like the crack in your heart, you should let your soul decide.
9. Some people never understand.
10. i cant multi-task like other girls
11. i think im hilarious....even if im not:]
12. My bestie says I`ve changed, but in a good way.
13. i love meeting new people.
14. My natural hair is light brown with natural red highlights.
15. i wanna be a hair stylist.
16. I could eat french bread forever:]
17. ill admit,i am dramatic
18. but im cute:]]
19. he makes the butterflies in my tummy:]
20. Glorious is my new favorite word.
21. KAITLYN is my bestie.
22. boys can confuse me easily.
23. But they`re a lot easier to deal with then girls.
24. i love hugs.
25. i get bored rather easily.
26. Its cute when cute boys blush:]
27. I blush...ALOT.
28. Im very clumsy and unbalanced.
29. Im getting my hair cut:]
30. It sgonna be so sexii.
31. I read alot.
32. i think things throughly.
33. i cant listen to rap for long periods of time.
34. i have a quizilla.
35. me and my bestie are like pb&j
36. i listen to industrial/techno/house/metal/screamo music.
37. i bet you my musc is rather strange to you.
38. i like scary movies.
39. i want to learn to play acoustic guitar.
40. i like to cuddle.
41. My number one fear is thunderstorms.
42. I know its retarded.
43. i wanna be a kid again.
44. I need the three small strings on an acoustic guitar
45. people tend to underestimate me.
46. I am a book worm.
47. i want a dragon lizard for a pet.
48. i write alot.
49. I like it when guys wrap there arms around my waist.
50. If you have any of number 44, can i have some please:]
51. Id love you forever if they`re acoustic.
52. i lOVE jokes.
53. no matter how cornyXD
54. i dont use my common sense.
55. finger painting is fun.
56. i change my mind, alot.
57. i have a dream to move to iceland.
58. im joining the SHS drumline in nineth grade wheather you like it or not.
59. i make random noises.
60. im teaching myself how to read piano music.
61. i`m pretty slow when it comes to jokes.
62. i make up my own words when i cant find the right one.
63. buy me a cookie the size of my head and i`ll your bestfriend.
64. i want to visit Italy.
65. I`m pretty smart when i want to be.
66. My friends are cuter then yours.
67. No matter what you sayXP.
68. i dance whenever i want to.
69. my favorite movie is [unknown]
70. i talk alot about what i know.
71. i hate it when people typez alz lyks dis and uz cantz undasandz dem.
72. i want someone to write a poem about me:]
73. i would would throw up rainbows if they did.
74. People say i act way older then my age.
75. People say i act way younger then my age.
76. Make up our mind please.
77. purple rain is probably the only musical i lovee.
78. i worry about the stupidest stuff.
79. i was bron in the spring.
80. HALLOWEEN is my favorite holiday.
81. whatever happens, happens.
82. i like to confuse people with big words.
83. i wonder alot.
84. i dont like 84 very much
85. I`ve never seen King Kong...
86. Is that bad?
87. I love drinking pepsi with twizzlers.
88. i hate resse`s.
89. I like resse`s pieces!
90. my sister calls me slam
91. ten more truths.
92. Now Function!!!!
93. my hair is CRAZY curls.
94. I have a necklace with a bunch of nick-nacks on it:]
95. Six flags is AAAhmazing.
96. 88 and 89 dont make sense.
97. I cherish my necklace.
98. Texas calls me Ducky.
99. i came here to chew bubble gum and kick some butt, but guess what? Im outta gumXD
100. i can be concieded at times.
101. i want spiderbite like CRAZY...its a peircing:]


http://www.myparasites.net/music.html
YAY^

I LOVE hugsXD

I got my monster next to me, my ipod next to me, and i looking so cute right now:] I know monster doesnt really do anything to you but, i still like the taste and the fact that it`s fizz wakes you up:]
TODAY WAS AMAZING. besides my ex being rude......its was totally fun. I got music onto my labtop, a new background, got to see my love, and picked a science fair project to do. That like NEVER happens:] But HE hugged me today. Not really hug me, but like wrapped his arms around my waist and welcomed me. I know it sounds stupid but, i blushed. Ha. He always makes me blush.
Anyhoo, I am HOPEFULLY getting my hair cut. I want to get really choppy layers...like my head is filled with layers, layers, layers. Of course itll get shorter, but at least it wont be as thick. Then i`ll probably redye it. A darker brown maybe. OR dark brown with a red tint? I dont know yet. I just want to get it cut firstXD.
I cant wait for halloween. I think i said thjis yesterday. Oh well. But I`m gonna be Captain Swashbuckler:] Boots, dress, hat, tutu, and everything. It`s gonna be GER-ATE. And im most likely going trick or treating with HIM. Which is gonna be fun, no doubt.

ttyl....<3

Now Function: My Paraites

"Nothing left but memories,
forgotten just like the rest that you deny
i wish that you could possibly
see the truth that might be told inside

now function. now function
you're destined to decompose
now function, now function
you're desperate; your lies, exposed

occasional glimpse of what i once thought you were
reminded of the unforgiving forceful fuckks
divided, now i;m disregardign her
divided, and im living without trust

every word you said to me,
these complicated consequences
circumstances, situations,
you turned your back on every word you said


now function. now function
you're destined to decompose
now function, now function
you're desperate; your lies, exposed"

I want to be in your arms forever<3

So i broke up with my boyfriend. He wasn`t the happiest little bird afterwards. But he didn`t even let me finish my sentence before he stormed off. That makes me angry. But i just blew it off, not wanting to make it worse. I was proud of myself for doing so:] But i felt horrible inside. I was scared to break up with him in the first place. He gets this sad, curious, puppy-love look on his face and its so adorable. But i resisted. I saw his heart break in his eyes and that just shot my mood out. But then I saw HIM and was happier. It was his birthday today. I made him a cheezy bracelet. It wasn`t an ipod or anything fancy as such, but he liked it. Which was good. HE always brightens my mood and creates the little butterflies in my tummy. He makes me fumble over my words and myself. I just cant help it. I love him.

I have DONT STOP by innerpartysystem stuck in my head. It`s a very addicting song to listen too.
ICANTWAITUNTILHALLOWEEN:]
-I`m and hopefully going trick or treating with him:]
-expanding his music.....
-walking around
-chillin at the park
-and having a good old time in the freezing night air
ICANTWAIT!
I`m being a pirate for halloween. Captain Swashbuckler to exact:] But i need like 150 bucks for it though. HAHA. I am gonna earn the money.


well my night meal is ready.
goodbye lovelies

<3

I`m Off Groundment!!!!

But tyler just got on it, so that 'deep talk' he wants us to ahve isn`t going to happen until monday when my mom gives me the code for my ipod, so I can use my aim app. Blaa codes.
anywhoo, click on the title of this blog and look at what i want to be for halloween:] A pirate of course, but a cute one. I like it....plus...it wa sthe only one my dad would let me wear. HaHa. It was a great conversation.
My stepdad is watching football....i cant follow that sport. And he plays fantasy football too. Personally, i think its all pretty stupid. But everyone has their own odd things.
Eight grade is actually funn. We get our labtops this wensday!!! But we can`t take them home for a bit amount of time. Sadly.
Listening to Tiny Dancer by Elton John. An amazing song...in my opinion at least.

I was smart and made a fold so now i have a PICTURE!!

So today i woke up at five in the AM. But it was for a good reason. I went to New York City. And i will say this, I absolutely ADORDED it:] We walked everywhere. From time square to the apple store. Man, it was awesome. I loved it. I want to move there now. Just because a piano you can play with your feet is there. I didn`t play on it but my sister and brother did. We went to the disney store and Ashley[sister] did the hoe down throw down and then I got my picture taken with the Candyland King. I love that game. The ferris wheel wasn`t working so we couldn`t go on that. Probably because its labor day weekend or whatnot. But anyway it was pretty AMAZING. You should go sometime.

Going to pac sun tomorrow...returning pants for a bigger size.It actually weird. I`m doing the opposite of what i use to do. it`s so much funner. HaHa. Wow.
Maybe going hiking, not positive.
deffenately going back home to my mums and my mile wide town.

I wanna see G.I. Joe really badly...someone take me........[:
[the pic is ashely, marissa, and me in the disney store. the lights where red on the elevator, no editing. Swear.Like it?]

I Eat Lightining Is SO AdorableXD

I have a song on my blog page:] Not my profile so dont get confused. HAHA. Its called Fast Forward. And yes, it does get stuck in your head and make you dance like crazy. But you have no choice but to love it:]]

I had a CRAZY weird dream last night. OK, maybe not totally crazy, but it was a crazy memory mixed with recent memories. I actually woke up laughing. How often does that happen to you? Not alot i bet. Anyhoo, the dream was of me and my bestie when we were in like 6th grade. I was sleeping over her house the night before we go to the beach, and as always we stay up later then her mum wants us to. But this night we stayed up longer then usual. Like until six in the morning. LOL.We got talking about our boyfriends at the time, our parents, school, other cute boys, and showing eachother our bathing suits [Hers was pretty cute, just saying]. But once she got in the shower, i was left to do nothing, so i just chilled. When she came out of the shower, she had wings and glittery hair. Then there was a flash then we were in the setting of the 1985 movie LEGEND. And the rest of the dream was of us watching the movie from WITHIN the movie.

I DID watch the movie last night at like one in the AM. I guess those two things clashed and caused my dream.
HAH, i love how i go to type and OMG moment or dream not having a clue on how anything happened. Then when i finish typing, I DOOOO have a clue. Tell me thats not weird.

As you probably you saw on yesterdays blog, i mostlikely will be hanging with out with my boyfriend:]](Kevin)

ttyl.....ily:]

Harry Potter Geeks are so Adorable:]

If you`re not happy, no body is. is that how it`s gonna be? Really? And you say IM immature. That is so childish, it`s not even funny. Maybe i was wrong about you. I ACTUALLY thought you would change. But you did. You really did change. Just not the kind of change people would think a positive change. You said you stopped being a jerk, but that my friend, is only one veiw. Your veiw. You changing isn`t true unless other people believe so. A change id noticed, easily. A change is talked, alot. A change is something people either adapt to or go with it. You did not change. I am sorry.


TOMORROWS PLANS;
hang with Kevin:]
going to my dads.
sleep. Woo!

I didn`t Have much time, so i only tweaked a little:[

1. Samantha Marie
2. twitter->SammyOhMy<-
3. I heart music.
4. i cry when im frustrated.
5. pinky promises are what i do
6. my school is on crack.
7. I hate silence.
8. His name is Kevin<3.
9. Some people never understand.
10. i cant multi-task like other girls
11. i think im hilarious....even if im not:]
12. Texas is my big brother.
13. i love meeting new people.
14. i love swimming.
15. i wanna be an enginer or stylist.
16. Mac&Cheese with Meatballs is my new favorite food:]
17. ill admit,i am strange
18. but im cute:]]
19. he makes the butterflies in my tummy:]
20. Glorious is my new favorite word...tehe.
21. KAITLYN is my bestie.
22. boys can confuse me easily.
23. But they`re a lot easier to deal with then girls.
24. i love hugs.
25. i get bored rather easily.
26. Its cute when cute boys blush:]
27. I blush...ALOT.
28. Im very clumsy and unbalanced.
29. Im getting highlights in my bangs and underneath:]
30. My home town is a hick town:|.
31. Number one is amazing.
32. i think things throughly before setting forth.
33. i cant listen to rap for long periods of time.
34. i have a quizilla.
35. me and my bestie are like pb&j
36. i love techno/rave/screamo/rock/metal/house/club/trance music
37. i bet you my musc is rather strange to you.
38. i like scary movies.
39. i want to learn to play acoustic guitar.
40. i like to cuddle.
41. My number one fear is thunderstorms.
42. I know its retarded.
43. i wanna be a kid again.
44. I need the three small strings on an acoustic guitar
45. people tend to underestimate me.
46. I am a book worm.
47. i want a dragon lizard for a pet.
48. i write alot.
49. many people call me babe, so you`re no different.
50. If you have any of number 44, can i have some please:]
51. Id love you forever if they`re acoustic.
52. i lOVE to laugh.
53. who doesn`t?
54. i dont use my common sense.
55. finger painting is fun.
56. i change my mind alot.
57. i have a dream to move to iceland.
58. im joining the SHS drumline in nineth grade wheather you like it or not.
59. i sing random things.
60. im teaching myself how to read piano music.
61. i`m pretty slow when it comes to jokes.
62. i make up my own words when i cant find the right one.
63. buy me a cookie the size of my head and i`ll love you forever.
64. i want to go to Italy.
65. I`m pretty smart when i want to be.
66. i`ve been awesome since 1996.
67. Number 60 is very challenging.
68. i read alot of vampire books.
69. my favorite movie would have to be 30 days of night....or the Covenat
70. i talk alot about what i know.
71. i hate it when people typez alz lyks dis and uz cantz undasandz dem.
72. i want someone to write a poem about me:]
73. i would would throw up rainbows if they did.
74. People say i act way older then my age.
75. People say i act way younger then my age.
76. i like new music.
77. purple rain is probably the only musical i lovee.
78. i worry about the stupidest stuff.
79. i was bron in the spring.
80. HALLOWEEN is my favorite holiday.
81. whatever happens, happens.
82. i like to confuse people with big words.
83. i wonder alot.
84. i dont like 84 very much
85. I`ve never seen King Kong...lol
86. HSK is aahmazing.
87. I love drinking pepsi with twizzlers.
88. i hate resse`s.
89. I likke resse`s pieces!
90. my sister calls me slam
91. ten more truths.
92. PARTY SUNDAY!!!!!!!!
93. my hair is CRAZY curls.
94. THERE`S A HUGE BUG IN MY ROOM!!!!
95. Six flags is AAAhmazing.
96. 88 and 89 dont make sense.
97. my sister calls me fattie.
98. my Texas calls me Ducky.
99. EatMeWhileImHot...lol
100. i can be concieded at times.
101. i can`t spell to save my life:]

HAH. I am SO done with you and your CRAP<3

"You can do whatever you want
You’re not stuck with me
I’ll tell you one thing
We made history
You and me
You’re getting closer now
It’s getting better now
But you’re still so far gone

I am to the point where I don’t even wanna know
Where you are and where you are going, baby
Same old story
But I am to the point where I don’t even wanna see your face anymore
Anymore

I don’t wanna live within regrets
Wonder why my life is a mess
But all you want is more
More, more, more

You’re getting closer now
Still getting better now
But you’re still so
But you’re still so far gone

I am to the point where I don’t even wanna know
Where you are and where you are going, baby
Same old story
But I do
The point where I don’t even wanna see your face anymore
Anymore

You’re so far gone
But i’m moving on

I, I never
I never felt so alive without
Without you by my side
I never
I never felt so alive without
I’m so glad I left you behind"
-EatMeWhileImHot...the point:]

Do we have classes together??

Homeroom-Daly
La-Daly
Math-Murowany<- awkward name
Sciene:]- Descalzi
social studies:[- hedgeman
LUNCH
cycle1- art
cycle2- gym
cycle3- career & pers
cycle4- health
cycle5- spanish
cycle6- gym

So if we have classes together, then glorious:]] If we dont then its a sad day in sammerzville. lol.
so figure it out:]]]

Rapunzel.....

i just wanna punch you in your face....you make me so mad. You`ve never even had one before and youre telling me all this crap on how it`s nothing and the needle doesn`t hurt and 'it`s just a needle'. You know what, I dont care. You`ve never had one before, you dont know what it`s like, and you should shut your pie whole before i shut it for you. One day, youre gonna say the wrong thing to the wrong person and your gonna get you brains punched in. And guess what, I`m gonna laugh so herd it hurts me. Just shut up and leave me the eff alone.
I`m getting a cat scan today and im kinda freaking out. I actually have to leave now. HEHE. Ok well talk to you guys later. Bye.

All We Need Is A Reason.....<3

1. Samantha Marie
2. twitter->SammyOhMy<-
3. I heart music.
4. i cry when im frustrated.
5. pinky promises are what i do
6. my school is on crack.
7. I hate silence.
8. i miss the past...alot.
9. Im in a different state at the moment.
10. i cant multi-task like other girls
11. i think im hilarious....even if im not:]
12. Texas is my big brother.
13. i love meeting new people.
14. i love swimming.
15. i wanna be an enginer or stylist.
16. not sure yet....]:
17. ill admit im strange
18. but im cute:]]
19. he makes the butterflies in my tummy:]
20. Colors are my friend
21. KAITLYN is my bestie.
22. boys can confuse me easily.
23. But they`re a lot easier to deal with then girls.
24. i love hugs.
25. i get bored rather easily.
26. Its cute when cute boys blush:]
27. im probably gonna kill myself trying to play.
28. Im very clumsy and unbalanced.
29. Im dying my hair blue or purple...
30. My home town is a hick town:|.
31. Number one is amazing.
32. i think things throughly before setting forth.
33. i cant listen to rap for long periods of time.
34. it gets to me.
35. me and my bestie are like pb&j
36. i love techno/rave/screamo/rock/metal/house/club/trance music
37. i bet you my musc is rather strange to you.
38. i like scary movies.
39. i want to learn to play guitar and bass guitar.
40. i like to cuddle.
41. My number one fear is thunderstorms.
42. I know its retarded.
43. i wanna be a kid again.
44. I need the three small strings on an acoustic guitar
45. people tend to underestimate me.
46. I am a book worm.
47. i want a dragon lizard for a pet.
48. i write alot.
49. many people call me babe, so you`re no different.
50. If you have any of number 44, can i have some please:]
51. Id love you forever if they`re acoustic.
52. i lOVE to laugh.
53. who doesn`t?
54. i dont use my common sense.
55. finger painting is fun.
56. i change my mind alot.
57. i have a dream to move to iceland.
58. im joining the SHS drumline in nineth grade wheather you like it or not.
59. i sing random things.
60. im teaching myself how to read piano music.
61. i`m pretty slow when it comes to jokes.
62. i make up my own words when i cant find the right one.
63. buy me a cookie the size of my head and i`ll love you forever.
64. i want to go to Italy.
65. I`m pretty smart when i want to be.
66. i`ve been awesome since 1996.
67. Number 60 is very challenging.
68. i read alot of vampire books.
69. my favorite movie would have to be 30 days of night....or the Covenat
70. i talk alot about what i know.
71. i hate it when people typez alz lyks dis and uz cantz undasandz dem.
72. i want someone to write a poem about me:]
73. i would would throw up rainbows if they did.
74. People say i act way older then my age.
75. People say i act way younger then my age.
76. i like new music.
77. purple rain is probably the only musical i lovee.
78. i worry about the stupidest stuff.
79. i was bron in the spring.
80. HALLOWEEN is my favorite holiday.
81. whatever happens, happens.
82. i like to confuse people with big words.
83. i wonder alot.
84. i dont like 84 very much
85. I`ve never seen King Kong...lol
86. HSK is aahmazing.
87. I love drinking pepsi with twizzlers.
88. i hate resse`s.
89. I likke resse`s pieces!
90. my sister calls me slam
91. ten more truths.
92. PARTY SUNDAY!!!!!!!!
93. my hair is CRAZY curls.
94. i straighten it.
95. Six flags is AAAhmazing.
96. 88 and 89 dont make sense.
97. my sister calls me fattie.
98. my Texas calls me Ducky.
99. I love you??.
100. i can be concieded at times.
101. i can`t spell to save my life:]

I want to go to a show...Badly.

I`v ebeen very busy with health stuff, boyfriend[Ryan], work/babysitting, and friends. But, im on vacation starting friday and wont be back until monday:]
I have a twitter->SammyOhMy<- follow me:]
I`m also a pirate...in case you didn`t already know that. But my space name is Captian Samm[rc]....add me on that too. haha.[email is s4mmystone@yahoo.com]
I just updated it too. its has the following...
New:
-song
-layout
-pic
-about me
-a flashing daftpunk head:]
It`s my favorite part^...hehe.

I`ll be redoing my 101 truths soon...again. They`re gonna be aweseome as ever!
I found a new band....they`re awesome....their name is... EatMeWhileImHot. They do have a myspace. Look em up:]

I dyed my hair....its almost black. Not how i wanted it to look. I want the red underneath and the bangs to be blonde. But i guess ill have to deal. Thank god for Hot Topic. lol. This school year is gonna be hecktic. my bestie moved, so now its just me, my bf, and Dollface[Chandler/hope]. It`ll be fun though. I hope we have all our classes together. Our schedules are alot different then last years. Like how they`re set up. Explaining it it like explaining the taste of water. It`s impossible.

Anyhoo, sorry that i haven`t writen in forever. Like i said, im a busy girl:]
<3

My Platlist:]

The link is above:] Check it out. Thats some of what i listen toooo.

So school is almost here. I`m going into a grade where everyone gets labtops:] I can`t wait. I`m gona feel so smart. Haha. Not that im not already. Anyhoo, but now i get twenty days of gym and ten days of health. It sucks. But we get more respect because we`re teenagers, and we`re being treated like them. Well atleast some of us are. Haha. But ni think our schedules are different. Like for one or two weeks
, we do two madatory classes and then then next one or two weeks we do the other two madatory classes. It`s super confusing, but i`ll get the hang of it:]
My biff wont be there this year though:[. She moved. But i`ll be seeing her alot, so no worries:]

I kinda can`t wait for school to start. I get to see all my friends againn!! And on a regular bases. hahah. I miss them.

So i might be going to new hampshire in a week or two. Like the weekend of the 23. That`s my boyfriends around my boyfriends birthday. Which is a totally and utterly absurd thing to do. I can`t tell you what im gonna get him, then he could read this and find out.

kk talk to you laterr. Mum needs me now
bai:]