1.30.2010

Shake It Uptown


Favorites:
Color: Purple
Fruit: Strawberries
Veggie: Carrot
Snack food: Strawberry Mini Wheats
Smell: It`s complicated
Genre of Music: Many electro and acoustic
Genre of Books: None
Band: Godsmack, NeverShoutNever, Ellie Gouling, and Tegan and Sara
Song: Smother me by the used, Red Rose by emilie autumn, Back in your head by tegan and sara
Book: My dads book of 'myths, spells, mystic beings, and the works'
Place: It`s complicated
Mood: Happy or mellow
Drink: Pepsi mixed with milk(it taste like a chocolate milkshake) and butter beer.

This Or That:
Coke or pepsi? Pepsi
Hug or kiss? Both
Run or walk? depends
Hot or cold? between
Loud or quiet? Loud music, quiet voice
Dark or bright? bright mornings, dark nights
Camera or phone? Camera to make the memories last
Surround sound or standard? Surround sound

Him/Her Values:
Female or male? Male
Eyes? Blue or green
Skinny or muscular? between
loud or quiet? loud but respectfully quiet
Talented? Artistic would be nice
Tattoos or piercings? Either or, it doesn`t matter
Tan or pale? between
Hair? doesn`t matter
Tall or short? Taller then me but not huge
Humor? Loads of it, but serious when needed

You:
Natural hair: Light brown
Eyes: light brown to dark green
skin tone: light ivory and olive mix
height: 5ft 5in
weight: it changes... 115-120
talents: drawing/writing
Free time: reading/music/drawing/ photography

(:

1.29.2010

I Miss You by Blink 182 is still stuck in my head.

"Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always."
-Always by Blink182

I remember one conversation I had with him and it was pretty intense. It brought me to tears. They weren't sad tears nor were they happy tears. They were tears that showed how much of an idiot I was two years ago in August. I let myself get paranoid and the thoughts of other people get to me about him and I lost him. I should I lost myself and in the middle of it al I lost him. the conversation was about some personal stuff. Yes I can talk to him about that kind of stuff and neither of us care. Thats just how good it is. Or use to be at least. I don`t know if it`s like that now. But he brought up the conversation up and fueled most of it. we started off talking about what he wanted to do over the weekend, sadly I couldn't attend. Then we got into deeper stuff and he told me things that made me happy but mad at the same time. I was mad because he`s told me those words before, and they were lies. I was mad that he was telling me this when he had others on his mind. I was mad that I started crying because I was touched and happy and relieved. I was mad that it felt like someone cared when no one did. I was mad that I lost it in August two years ago. The best thing ever in my hands, and I lost it. Sometimes I hear what he has to say and then I tell someone and they tell me he`s been telling his friends that he`s been messing with me and joking around. Like he was messing with my heart. the sad part is, I believed him over everyone else. I believe one to many. I still do most of the time. It`s probably because sixth grade. It`s probably because I still have deep feelings for him. I could go on and on about reasons. Either way, I doubt he cares. I`m a lot quieter now that things have change a lot. And when I say change i mean change. We had a lot of fights after June before this school year. He thought I lied to him, he thought I didn`t trust him, he thought wrong. Then there I was second guessing myself as usual. Messing things up for myself. Yet again. I had a reason why I broke up with him. It sounds really stupid to a lot of people but that`s just how I am. I get paranoid and let things get to me too much and it makes me hate myself. Like I said, things have changed. We don`t talk as much as we use to and we get into a lot more arguements then we use to. Since we haven`t been talking as much I`ve been a lot more quieter. It might not seem like it, but I`ve been losing sleep and I haven`t been eating right. I`m starting to worry my dad. I would tell my mom, but she`s never home. And when she is, she`s running all over gods creation doing this and that or she's sleeping. I don`t want her to think I don`t like talking her anymore, but I try to leave her alone when shes relaxing so she can sleep and catch up on things. technically, she should be getting twelve hours of sleep. Like I said a while back, she isn`t doing so hot. It`s starting to worry me, because she`s been getting sick a lot more lately and it`s been serious stuff too. Sorry for the spelling. I really don`t care right now because I`ve been having a bad week and what I`m telling you just topped it off like a cheery on a sundae.

I really need to get things worked out badly before I lose someone else I love, and I think I should have a talk with him. A deep talk and just get everything out and off my chest. Same goes for him.

I say good day.

1.28.2010

Waiting For Ten Minutes To Be Up(:

".....You`ve left me speechless...." -Lady GaGa(:

I dyed my Hair(: It`s darker now. WAY darker. Like almost black darker. I love it so much.
Rum a bum bum
X.X
SJKDBVASKHJFANO
Dude. Clickt he title of this blog. You`ll be able to see my new hurrr. Click click click click click! Do it. You won`t. No balls. HAH.

This happens everytime I dye my hairr. I listen to music I NEVER would listen to and I get all hyped up and stoked for no reason. Hyped up and stoked pretty much mean the same thing BTW.
The dye made my hair thicker then it already is. So it looks like I teased it and it`s really bouncy. GAH I love it.
I would like to announce that my hair looks SMEXY-LICIOUS.
Though you`d like to know(:

I haven`t told anyone from my school. I actually didn't plan on ding my hair tonight. I had money and I was sick of the blonde and throw up pink. Yes I had throw up pink in my hair. Remember when I dyed my hair BRIGHT red underneath? Well it faded to throw up pink and it made me sick. But that`s all gone.

Tomorrow, when my mother takes my sister, Asherz, to the tattoo shop to get new trag rings, I`m gonna look at barbells since my stupidhead of a brother lost my original silver one because he tried to gauge his ear and he stole that one. Loser. I`m gonna make him get me knew ones now or for my birthday. Either way, he`s buying me new ones. Ones that are pretty and not plain or have spikes at the ends. Gah I hate spikes. They poke my head and they`re a kajbsofalhs to get one. Haaaaa.

I say AAAAAAAAAAAAH to you:)<3

1.25.2010

Ten More days NOT counting today(:

".....What`s My Age Again?......." -Blink 182


Do you tell them to tell me? You say no. I believe you. I think they know I still like you. I know they know. They only remember when ever you`re not single. They tell me every time some one new comes along. I say I don`t mind. I usually don`t on the outside. Inside... That`s a different story. They remind me everyday as if they`re waiting for me to break down and cry. Or to see if I`ll say anything to you or start being less of a friend to you.

I still have to teach John(: how to slow dance. When he told me he couldn`t it was so adorable. He told me not to tell his mom that there was going to be slow dances there. I couldn`t help but laugh. So I`m teaching him how to the day of the party after school. unless he wants to learn earlier. Which I doubt. He`s always busy so I never see him outside of school. I saw him once. Once. I`m gonna see if he wants to come over this weekend. My mom still had to meet him. That, I`m dreading. Because she`ll want him to stay for dinner and once we`re all sitting and eating, she`ll start talking about my toddler and baby days. Which will be horrible. OhMyGolly. I just hope he doesn`t get embarrassed because my mom is telling him this. I would feel so bad if he felt uncomfortable.

I`m counting down the days until the masquerade. I`m so excited. Haha. Not as excited as my sister though. She`s like freaking out excited. Haha. Her dress is really pretty. It`s plain black and the top part is shiny and glittery. The the bottom is plain cotton or whatever. I like her mask too. It has... Not gonna tell you. Sorry. She wants it to be a surprise. I`ll take a picture of it the day of. I`ll also take pictures of everyone before I head over there. I hope my Grandpa doesn`t plan on taking pictures, but then I do hope he does. When ever he takes pictures of us, he takes five of the same picture and he makes us pose 24017523209 different ways. (Not really that many ways). And he`ll make us take some outside.

ICan`tWait(:<3

1.21.2010

I Think It Just Might Work(:

...It`s time that we found out who you are...

I`m not sure what to do about them anymore. They`ve been getting drastically worse and I usually deal with them well. But once in a while they get upsetting and I wake up breathing heavily, sweat drenched. Sounds gross huh? You don`t even know the half of it. And I`m not gonna explain it. Sorry. It`s not because I`m trying to be a jerk or because I`m in a bad mood. I`m just don`t think I can handle talking about them. That`s not how it always was. I use to talk freely about them, like they were regular dreams any girl my age would have. Well for me, they are regular. we`re hitting almost eighteen months here with these. How sick nasty is that? Going almost two years of the same thing every night. Ha. And I don`t mean that in a good way.

Have you sweared to someone? I don`t mean swearing as in say obscene words, I mean keeping a secret. What do you say? Do you say ' I promise to never let those words escape my lips.' I do. How about 'you can trust me, really. No one will know.' I do. How`s this... 'You don`t have to worry about thing. I swear.' I do. But have you ever broken that swear? I have. How many times? Once? Twice? Maybe more? Yes, more then twice. I feel so ashamed to say it, but it`s the truth. But it`s not like anyone`s perfect. I know that`s played into your head over and over again, written everywhere and on everything. But it`s true. I don`t I`ve ever met smeone who has never lied a day in their life. I probably never will. Sad isn`t it? Not really. At least I don`t think so. If people didn`t lie, we wouldn`t have surprises. We would`t have the war. We wouldn`t have a lot of things. Global warming was a lie. At least that`s what they`ve been telling us. It might be becoming too hard to find natural fuels we could use when our original ones are gone. It could be a lie. No body knows.

Oh what a world what a world!
Shame.

1.20.2010

I Need To Ask You A Favor...

You`re so quiet, it doesn`t phase me. -Ellie Goudling

I need someone to come with me to see the lovely bones in theaters. I won`t go see it by myself because I`m afraid I`ll cry and look really stupid. Haha. So if you want to see it with me, please let me know(:

I want a monster. The big hamster looking one from 'Monsters VS Aliens'. That`s the one I want, and I mean a stuffed animal version. But if you could get me the real deal I`ll love you more then I do now(:
I was talking to my friend Tony about it in science class, and he was laughing so hard he fell out of his seat.
Speaking of science. Today is my science fair. I finished everything in time. I feel so relieved. Haha. I think, out of all the backboards i`ve seen while setting up, I was the only one who used ducktape for a boarder, and had ALOT of bright colors and pictures. I could be wrong though. There wasn`t a lot of people set up when I walked it. So maybe I`m not an outcast(:
Social studies was fun too. We had a test, it was pretty hard, I think I failed it. The whole time everyone was testing, derek, HIM, and Caleb all made noises. I think Dan made some too, but he`s a real big follower. Though He`s HILARIOUS. Anyhoo, the noises part was so funny. It was so NOT to laugh out loud. HE sat across from me and was, most likely, hyper , and when he`s hyper, he gets off task and does some really funny stuff.

Him and me ad a short conversation last night. I felt really bad. Things got in the way of what I wanted and now I don`t get it. And what I me by it is probably not you think I mean by it.
That sounds confusing. Sorry.

I`m eating pineapple and drinking coffee. My two favorite things ever. I think I`m going to do my favorites list tomorrow or sometime this week.

Listening to Guns and Horses by Ellie Goudling.
Look that song up, it makes me want to live in Canada even more then I do now. And be a fashion designer, but I`m not exactly sure why. Haha.

1.18.2010

Good Heavens Child<3

Fer sure maybe fer sure not
Fer sure eh fer sure bomb
Pulled up at a stop light did drugs on the dashboard
Look at the mess we made tonight
-Fersure by Medic Droid


I know you won't admit this
I am just a silhouette to you
You found comfort with my distance
But you never let me stray out of your view
-Silhouettes by Swimming With Dolphins


Studies show:
Intelligent girls are more depressed
Because they know
What the world is really like
Don't think for a beat it makes it better
When you sit her down and tell her
Everything gonna be all right
She knows in society she either is
A devil or an angel with no in between
She speaks in the third person
So she can forget that she's me
-Opheliac by Emilie Autumn


So Ashley is laying next to me on my bed and her tummy hurts.. Haha. It might sound mean for me to laugh at her pain but I promised her something that involves her tummy. Holy crap its hilarious. Just thinking about it makes me laugh to near tears. We`re talking about hilarious memories and her laugh just makes my world go round. It changes depending on the funny thing. But we`re both laughing so hard it`s hurting me. I`m laughing at her laugh and shes laughing because of my remarks and me laughing. She`s crying thats how hard she`s laughing. We`re both fairly calm, but we get burst of giggles.
We were both calm when ash had to say something and I just started laughing. She started laughing as well and rolling in place. She got spit in her eye and her laugh changed. I bet if you hung out with us for a day you`d probably think we were high 24/7.
I love my Ashley(:<3

Future plans(:

That Boy Is A Monster

One day, my sister, who I love so very much, and I are going to invite loads of people over and everyone is going to watch a bunch of movies.  Movie after after movie. Fun after fun. it`s gonna be great. I really doubt we`ll be doing it anytime soon. Most likely during the summer, closer to the new school year. We`ll watch old movies like Beauty and the Beast, Alice In Wonderland, and Marry Poppins(: And newish movies and newww newww movies. I honestly think it`ll be fun. that is if it even happens.

I forgot everything for my science fair at school and its in two days. I still need to do my WHOLE backboard and touch up my notebook. So I`ve developed a plan. I am going to stay after on tuesday. i`m going to work on my backboard at home  and just print everything I need at school. Minus my graph and a couple pictures.

I was talking to him and we were giving eachother links to some awesome songs, and there was one and it wasnt a remix like the rest, but it was great(:

1.17.2010

Father Figure by George Micheal(:

"#aintnothinglike pre-audition nerves to make you rethink being a slacker.(:" -ashleydeex3 from twitter(my sister)


1. I`m Samantha Marie(:
2. I keep pinky promises like it`s my job.
3. During my free time I write, read, draw, or research.
4. I research a lot of things most people don`t.
5. I`m really bad with grammar.
6. I think black and white photos are so much prettier.
7. I want to learn photography
8. I think acoustic guitars make music much more beautiful.
9. I want to learn acoustic guitar.
10. I listen to music 99.9% of my time.
11. The french language to me is amazing.
12. I want to learn french too.
13. I`m starting to think of making my own clothes.
14. Maybe start a line of my own.
15. Most of my ideas probably sound really stupid to you.
16. I observe a lot.
17. I`m very quiet and shy.
18. When I`m nervous, I fidget or don`t make any sense.
19. I don`t like LiveJournal.
20. I feel it`s too confusing for me.
21. I`m taken at the moment<3 
22. I`m working on a story at the moment. 
23. My favorite song is "I Wish I Stayed" by Ellie Goudling 24. I don`t think I`m your average kid. 
25. Once I`m able to move out, I`m moving to either Canada or Maine. 
26. I`m really good at cooking(: 
27. I`ll breakfast for you if you ask. 
28. I love old movies like Marry Poppins and The Sound Of Music 
29. I want to dye my hair a really dark brown. 
30. Then I want to dye my top layers blonde. 
31. I want spider bites and my noes pierced. 
32. My family is close on my mother`s side. 
33. I`m night person. 
34. I`m a sprinter, not a runner. 
35. I want to do band in high school. 
36. I most likely wont though:( 
37. My mother called me a break in family tradition. 
38. I`m going to college when my time comes. 
39. I have dreams of opening my own cafe. 
40. CaptainSamm @twitter.com 
41. I have a lot of clothes. 
42. I usually cut then up and make them my style. 
43. I have a wide range of music. 
44. I`m currently taken<3(: 
45. nine is my curfew for phone and computer. 
46. I love my baby Dani(: 
47. She isn`t my child....she`s my aunt and uncle`s<3 
48. I love her just the same. 
49. I love my moms tea. 
50. Dani likes classical music. 
51. I love blue or green eyes. 
52. I think brown eyes are so flat and boring, though I have them. 
53. I think 'Graduates PUFFS' the sweet potatoe kind, taste like marshmellows and ginger. 
54. I love playing piano. 
55. my bangs are blonde, underneath is BRIGHT red, and the rest is red glazed(: 
56. It was a christmas present from my mother to me. 
57. Copland: Simple Gifts; Dvořák: Going Home is my favorite song in the WHOLE entire world. 
58. I love how my baby sister say "Oh! That scared the world out of me!" 
59. No matter how weird my music. I still love it<3 
60. I love my leather jacket. 
61. I`ve always wondered what i would look like with dreds... 
62. I will post a list of all my favorite songs one day.
63. To Write Love One Her Arms(:<3 
64. Check out my deviantARt gallery at http://s4mm.deviantart.com/gallery/ 
65. Most don`t know it, but I like jazz and classical music. 66. The title of this blog is one my favorite song list. 
76. Clicking on the title of this blog will show you a amazing out coming photographer. He`s hilarious too, so talk to him(: 
77. Glamorous Indie Rock n Roll by The Killers is blasting at seven am in my room, now. 
78. Within a time period of twenty minutes, the sky got rather bright then when I woke. 
79. I have to teach him how to slow dance(:<3 
80. He`s my date to a masquerade too<3 
81. Haha QQing 
82. Texas is no more. 
83. He`s a complete and total jerk to me. 
84. Wouldn`t be surprised if he was like that to everyone.
85. I should be sleeping instead of typing this. 
86. But who needs sleep? :| 
87. I hate watching scary movies by myself. 
88. I also hate it when you watch a very sad movie and you start crying, then everyone makes fun of you or just stares at you. 
89. It`s like " Hello? i`m crying my eyes out here. You could at least hug me or give me a tissue. DUH." 
90. I Miss You by Blink 182 just came on(: 
91. I wrote a blog about him. Look at filthy victorian mix the "put yourself in this situation" one. 
92. I still need to make a video for krysten(:<33333 
93. I miss her so much 
94. I hate it when people don`t spell out the word completely. 
95. You can`t understand them and then they get mad because you keep asking the "what do you mean" and they type the same way.
96. I can`t wait for february.
97. It`s next month(:
98. "Love of mine, some day you will die. But i`ll be close behind. I`ll follow you into the dark." -I will follow you Into The Dark by Death Cab for Cutie
99. Smother me is my favorite song EVER
100. My Mother said maybe to me dying my hair(:

101. I MUST finish my story by the end of this year.

1.16.2010

Filthy Victorian Mix.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
-Here Without You by Three Doors Down

I was on the phone with him and the conversation was elected into the hall of favorite conversations(: We were talking about scary movies and he was rather shocked when I told him I`ve never seen any of the Saw movies, Children of the corn, Chucky, Micheal or freddy movies. He said when I go over his house he wants me to watch them with him. See, I have this thing where I won`t watch a scary movie by myself for the first time. And since the Saw movies are supposably super doper scary, I am most likely going to cry. I told him that too. He said if I did, he`d turn the movie off and feel really bad. I told him don`t be surprised if I hide behind a pillow or cover my eyes and start shaking. Haha. I sound ridiculous. Thunder storms and scary movies are my fears. I love scary movies though. I know it sounds really bad, but I do. I bet fi you ask any of my friends, my close friends though, they`d tell you that I`m terrified of little things but I love watching scary movies.

Can you put the past away?
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
I would understand
-Jumper by Third Eye Blind

Put yourself in this situation: You`ve been in a relationship with them for a while and have a bit of history with that person. You`re in a great relation ship now, and you wish the other person is too. But you still have feelings for them. No matter how deep inside they are, they`re still there. Boiling on low. Only causing slight butterflies. Having you think about them constantly in the back of your mind. Then something big happens between you and that other person, and your feelings explode inside you. Your thoughts are filled to the brim with nothing but them and you blush constantly to old memories and thoughts of them, not caring if you look like an idiot. But you get scared. Scared that it`s just a phase. Scared that they`re just messing with you. Scared that it`s all lies. So you come up with two options. One being you could run away, change everything about you and who you are. But what about who you`re with now? Don`t you care about them at all? Would you want to hurt them by leaving? No, of course not. You love them. So it leads you to option two; avoiding the person, live your life like nothing ever happened with that person, and erase everything from your life that has to do with them. But you`re bestfriends with that person. You can`t go avoiding them on some random day. They would want an explanation, forcing you to lie and say
never mind, it`s nothing, don`t worry about it.

I`m still frustrated that I can`t wear the dress I wanted to wear. I`ll admit, it`s a bit formal for a semi-formal party. But it`s so gorgeous. I think I already described what it looks like. But the back it exposed, and has laced work that keeps it closed. My sister said You`re not aloud to wear it, you`ll upstage me. I couldn`t believe it. No one will even notice me. Almost everyone at her party is gonna be her age and up. Of course I know them, but they`re HER friends. Not mine. They won`t be paying attention to me. I can promise that. So now I`m gonna get a different dress. Sigh.

1.15.2010

Envience by me

"Immortality isn't everything the preachers crack it up to be." -Miles from Tuck Everlasting(:

The quotes for this blog is from tuck everlasting and is said by Miles. Who I feel so sad about, that I start crying.
Click the title of this blog. The photo is so beautiful(:
Read: It`s this little scene acted out when I was in class one day. Hope you like it.

“Never again Craven,” Eliza was walking down New York City`s back streets, with her best friend, laughing, causing her breath to come out in little puffs, and her red pixie curls to bounce.
“It was probably one of the best experiences of my entire exsistence. Seeing their eyes so wide,” He was muffling a laugh with the cuff of his leather jacket. “But they were so calm. Very unusual for humans these days.” He pulled Eliza close and barked a laugh.
Eliza blushed and laid her hand over his, resting them both on her shoulder.
They walked on, stopping at the end of an alley, and check themselves. Eliza, making sure her lips were stained with lipstick rather then blood; and Craven making sure he didn`t drip. Which he did, though he didn`t notice until Eliza said something.
“Oh come here,” She pulled him too her but his jacket collar, and wiped at his shirt.
“Did I drip?” He looked down and then let out a loud sigh running a hand through his black hair.
“Only a little,” Using her finger, she got off all the blood, leaving only a light dark spot on the grey material. She licked her finger and smiled, stepping away from him and making sure he didn`t drip anywhere else. Once satisfied, she smiled up at him.
“Am I good? Can you notice it?” He was looking down at his shirt, running another hand through his hair.
“Craven,” Eliza breathed his name soft and sweet. “You look fabulous. Promise.”
He smiled down at her and pulled in for a hug, kissing her forehead, and walking further into the city.
That was the thing about those two. They always seemed more then best friends. They always seem to get each other better then anyone else. They would hold one another`s hands, or they would hold each other. It sometimes seemed like they had telepathy and could read each others mind.
They passed restaurants, shops, and clubs with lines of people waiting to get inside. Truing heads towards them as they passed each person. Girls gawking at Cravens hand on Eliza`s waist, and guys glaring at Eliza`s hand on Craven`s. Ignoring it all, they walked into a tattoo shop, they relaxed a bit, feeling at ease in a familiar and comfortable environment. Acting like humans now, they browsed and asked questions to which they already new the answers to. Once they were done, they walked to the counter, slipped a guy with a scarred up face a fifty. With that, the guy casually looked around, making sure noone was looking and slipped to the back. Eliza and Craven following.
“I`m guessing feed?” Craven`s head was tilted towards Eliza, but he was looking at the guy, who looked quite fierce with his rusty brown skin and facial piercings.
They were in the back room, hanging by a door that looked to have markings on the sign.
“No,” A husky voice coming from the guy answered. “ He was hunted and killed last week. I`m Serge.” His white eyes flickered from Craven`s hand to Eliza. Who noticed and stepped away from Craven, giving Serge a flirty smile.
Serge winked and kept speaking.
“I`m taking his spot, and I`m not a filthy mud blood. I won`t be as easy to spot to the Envince.” He mumble something else under his breath real quick, before hitting a button next to the door with his fist.
A few seconds later, the door opened to reveal a cage. They all stepped inside it and waited for the door to shut. Once it did, they began talking again.
“How`d the find him though?” Eliza spoke up, a faint blush on her cheeks.
Serge didn`t look at her as he spoke.
“ Feed thought, just because he blended in better then us, “ He breathed, causing the scar on his jaw to move slightly. “ That he wouldn`t get caught.”
Eliza was watching him as he spoke. Her dark green eyes staring intensely at him.
Craven has placed his hand back on her shoulder, more so resting it there then holding her. He wasn`t paying attention to the conversation going on, he was just looking at the gothic floor counter, his fangs getting a bit cooler as they got further down into the earth. His eyes getting brighter, almost blending in with he whites of his eyes.
Serge turned to look her in the eyes.
“ He was obviously wrong,” His voice was softer as he spoke.
The counter binged and they got out of the cage ,and stepped into a deep red room, vibrating with the beat of the music playing on other side of the wall. Eliza turned to watch Serge.
“Have fun at Club Claret.” He winked and then shot back up the shaft. The cage following him.
Eliza blushed and turned back to Craven. Kissing his cheek on the way to the coat hanger, she took her pleather trench coat off for the first time tonight. Revealing a strapless dress that reached just mid-thigh. It was black with patches of yellow and grass green. The front was tied together with lace and the back was cut low.
Craven whistled and took his jacket off as well. Showing off a grey cut off shirt and black leather pants.
Eliza blushed and batted her lashes real quick, and walked over to him.
Once they both hung up their coats, they braced themselves at the club entrance door. Waving their hands in front of a screen, the computer confirmed there information and let them pass through the door. The vibration of the music sliced through them, shaking the frame of their bodies.
Feeling the beat of the music, Craven danced his way into the moving crowd, pulling Eliza with him. Feeling the coolness from the other bodies, Eliza moved with craven, their bodies acting as one. The music screamed over the crowd, bleeding from the walls and along the ceiling and floor.
“Oh my,” the girl behind Craven spoke a little too loud, laughing not stop to everything her friend said.
“When did vampire girls get so, “ He searched for a word.
“Annoying?” Eliza said for him, biting back a smile.
“ Yes!” He tilted his back and barked out a laugh. “ Thank you,” He turned his face more towards the too-loud-girl. “Annoying.”
She stopped talking and looked his way glaring. She got up from her seat, walked over to Eliza, and sneered. Eliza just laughed and back handed her, causing her to fly across the room.
Craven just sat looking at Eliza as if he wasn`t phased at all by what just happened.
“How come the newbies are always so…..” It was Eliza`s turn to look for a word.
“Snobbish?”
“Yea, snobbish.”
Craven hissed at the bar tender, who auto-matically brought a fresh beverage.
“Can I have some?” A new voice came from behind Craven.
They both turned their heads to see a tall blonde, smirking their way.
Craven`s eyes widen and he turns his whole body to get a better look and ignores Eliza when she ask who that was.
So Eliza walked away. Leaving them to whatever. Heading to the other side of the dance floor, she bumped into someone, knocking her and the person to the floor and smashing their heads against the walls. only the slight smell of blood as she got up, she turns to see who she knocked into only to have her breath catch.
He was tall, unusually tan skin for a vampire. Bleach blonde hair that was laid flat and wavy. His scorching blue eyes looked as if they`ll cry any minute. He had his shirt off, revealing his chest and his arms. Both had thick bands of muscle around them. His nipples were pierced and his eyebrow pierced. Around his neck, hung a penagram. There was something about him. Something that vampires don`t have. He had a smell. It wasn’t a bad smell. It was more so warm and sweet. The smell filled the air around them, causing
Eliza couldn`t help but stare.
“I`m so sorry,” He held his hand out as if to help balance her.
She didn t need any help with balancing though. Breathing, maybe.
When she didn`t say anything, he spoke again.
“My name is, “ He looked around and licked his lips. “My name is Jaden.” He whispered his name. “Whats yours?”
“My name is Elizabeth and I don`t need your help with my balance.” She took a small step back, not wanting to be real far away from him.
Jaden smirked and shook his head down. He looked at her through narrow eyes now with his arms crossed and his feet shoulders width apart.
“You seemed to be in a rush,” He bit faint pink lip and tilt his head forward a bit.
“I was just about to, when we collided,” She didn`t know why things were coming out as harsh as were. But this is how it always was if she was talking to anyone besides Craven and a few other people.
“How odd, me too. Why are you leaving though?” He leaned against the bar behind him, his foot on a barstool. “ Your kind like to party and chill here?
“Exscuse me?” She took a step closer to him and put her hands on her hips.
“You`re excused,” He started to step near the club, but stopped to and turned back to Eliza.
“Can I help you?” Her voice was harsh but her eyes were wide.
He took her arm and started to pull her with him.
Too shocked to do anything, Eliza managed to grab her coat before exiting to the city streets. Once they were out of the club and into the tattoo shop, Serge walked over to them, eyeing Jaden and giving Eliza a questioning look.
“What are you guys doing?” He crossed his arms and kept his voice low.
“Just heading out a bit early,” Jaden spoke for Eliza.
Serge looked at Eliza, searching her eyes for anything that might be true. Finding nothing, He stepped aside and let them pass.
Bursting through the tattoo parlor doors and onto city streets, Jaden still had Eliza`s arm in his hand.
“Ok,” Eliza coughed and let her eyes and fangs adjust to the temperatures. “What do you want?” She yanked at her arm and stumbled backwards when he let go of it.
“What do I want?” He chuckled and threw his head back into a bark.
“ Yes, what do you want?” She stared at him, trying not to seem as frusterated as she was.
“I want to live a normal life,” He looked at her now, a soft smile and light eyes.
Eliza didn`t think this was normal for vamps. Like it was almost human, but his smell was all wrong for human. It smelled…. She didn`t know what it smelled like, but it wasn`t right.
“This is a normal life,” She brushed her hands off and reached for a ledge. “Normal for a vampire that is,” She said the last part under her breath.
He reached a hand out to her and shook his head.
Eliza eyed it and looked at him.
“What are you shaking your head about?” She slid back a bit to get a better view of him in the night light.
“How oblivious you are to my smell,” His voice was a furious whisper.


I`ll probably be adding to this as new thoughts boil in my brain(:

I`ll Tell You Something, I Wanna Hold Your Hand.

Soul meets soul on lover's lips.
-Percy Bysshe Shelly


Clicking the title of this blog will show you how much I love my science class(:<3 Nothing special really happened today. I got hurt and guys kept hitting my butt. Apparently it`s national hit Samm`s butt day. woo. i`m started to not like the people in John`s science class. they`re being mean to him and making him mad. It`s been almost three days in a row that he`s been mad because of those people. I don`t like it when he`s mad. He puts on a face that hides all emotion, he tells me he`s fine, and then someone makes a comment and he snaps. It sucks. Not his mood swings, I`m use to guys having mood swings. It sucks that he`s been mad after his science class. I got my two dresses today. One is for my friends party. It reaches at my knees, has a super pretty pattern on it, and has brown trim. It`s strapless and light, so I won`t get hot. One is for ash`s party and it`s long, strapless, is black with a corset back, and has a white bead design on the skirt. It`s so pretty and I really like it. But my sister thinks I shouldn`t wear it to her party. She thinks it`s too formal. No, wait, she doesn`t think its too formal, she`s concerned it`s too formal. It`s a masquerade. it`s based on the masquerade from the Phantom Of The Opera. Last time I check, and I`m not a pro on this, but isn`t the masquerade in the opera a ball? I`m so frustrated right now, it` not even funny.

I`m thinking about dying my hair again. Maybe dye everything, except underneath, dark brown, and then dye it all dark blue. But dye the blue over the brown, so you can barely see it. It`l be like a glaze, except for underneath, it`ll be blue. I already asked me mom and she said not now. So once the dye in my hair fades away, i`ll dye it the brown, let it sit, then use the blue. Or i could do the red glaze I have in my hair now. I really like how it makes my hair seem darker, and makes my curls prettier(:

I`m listening to Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt
(:<3

1.14.2010

Job For A Cowboy(:

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I really think you should click this blog title. It`s such a pretty dress that I`m coaxing my mother to buy for me. Not now, obviously. All the parties I`m invited too are semi-formal so the dress wouldn`t do. I could probably wear it for graduation and/or my Aunt`s wedding. Both of those dresses are in warm seasons. I also might change my mind between now and then. What ever happens happens(:

Ahaaa... The Drums(:

Today was good. Nothing special happened besides me choking in social studies. We were doing a presentation-My group and I- and I had everything I had to say memorized. Then, as always, I got up in front of the class, looked at him, and choked. Lost all train of thought, breathing control, and choked. But surprisingly, he was in the hall. You`re probably thinking I`m talking about HIM. I am not. I`m talking about John(: I was just as surprised, not that he made me lose control. I`m surprised that I didn`t lose control when looking at HIM. Of course I blushed a lot. Then stage fright kicked into overdrive and I was shaking, breathing heavy, and wouldn`t look into anyones eyes. It` a class presentation, what are you gonna do?
So my plan was to get off the bus, walk swiftly home, do my homework and chores. Then head off to get dresses. Yes, it`s the plural word. I need to dresses. One not so elegantdress for my friends party, and one very elegant dress for my sister`s masquerade -which is on February fifth- but ashley told me not to steal her thunder. there`s this beautiful pink and black one that I like. It`s not the one form the picture(click the title). It`s a total different one. I`d explain what it looks like, but it`s too hard to. You`ll just have to wait to see pics. It might be a while, so have patience(:

I want to watch Romeo and Juliet with some who won`t make fun of me when I cry.

My mommy got a root canal today. She`s doped up on drugs-medical related I swear- and is dazing around the house. I feel really bad. I got into a fight with her, because she said she`d drive me to my grandparents and I told her I`d walk. I didn`t want her driving because she keeps falling in and out of sleep. Besides my grandparents live right up the block and I love walking. So tomorrow my mother and I are going to my grandparents and getting dresses. I feel so much better now that she`s sleeping.



"These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which as they kiss consume
."
- William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, 2.3

1.13.2010

Mixtures.

"But men are men; the best sometimes forget." -William Shakespeare(:

I wanna scream liar in his face really badly. He completely went back on his word. He said one nice thing to my face, and not just once, but so much. Like he did it like it was second nature. Heck, it probably is second nature to him. Being a liar is his talent. He told me so many sweet things, I started to believe him and not believe others when they said he was telling me lies. To my face. It`s not that he lied to me. I could care less about the lies. people lie to me all the time. It`s just the fact that he lied about loving me. about how I was the only one. I wish I could just walk away. But I can`t. I still love him. Probably always will.

IHateMyself.

Today was ok. We started research for debates in Language Arts. Took a test in Math. Worked on a lab and got a lecture about our laptops in Science<3. Then social studies came... I was standing in line to go into class and I saw john(: I do almost every day. but today was different. Butterflies came. I couldn`t talk. I couldn`t look at him without smiling and blushing.
OhGolly(:

1.12.2010

I Miss My Krystennnnnn<3(:

[16:30] s4mmdee: dont turn him on krysten. little boys pants shouldn`t be pointing yet
[16:30] s4mmdee: geez
[16:31] blockers<33: hahahahhah! [16:31] blockers<33: that just made me lol

It makes me feel super dooper sad when ever I have to let go or walk away. I love him. Though I`m too scared to admit it to anyone but myself... He was over the other night. It was awkward, but a good awkward and I didn`t mind it at all. It was driving my family insane, yes. He was very quiet when in the open, but very talkative and funny when it was just him and me. He was helping me with my project and every time I had to take his pulse I wanted to hold his hand. But I wasn`t sure that would`ve been ok. Like I said, he`s very different then the others. He`s one of those boys that make what they want obvious but faint. My mother said that it was a lot like me. Lovely. Ahaa. My mom. She wasn`t home when he came over, so it was just cory and my sister, and she got home around eleven. The usual. I was still up working on my notebook-which was due the next day- and she came in the door and start throwing questions at me at once. C'était fou! I couldn`t help but laugh, but that just made her mad. And when my mother gets mad, she stumbles over her words. A lot. It`s hilarious and so hard NOT to laugh. If you do laugh it just makes her even angrier and stumbles even more.
I hate how some people think you can live without them because your day was completely different then what would`ve been when they were there. Frustrates the crap out me.
Today was good. I was tired from staying up so late. Other then that it was fine. Social studies was good. It was a bit humorous. Ryan, Derek, and Dustin all did a skit right on the spot. Science class was GER-ATE, as always. I sit next to Banana again(: He moved back without the teacher knowing. We were suppose to work on our notebook, I was done and Banana was almost done. So when he was three pages away from finishing he stopped and he played with photo booth the rest of the period. I heart my science class. The rest of the day I zoned out.
he knows he`s HIM. I`m not sure why still refer to him as Him. it`s totally pointless. I guess it`s just habit. Calling him HIM when he already knows he`s HIM. It does get confusing after a while. I usually don`t refer to a certain guy by name, so often people don`t know which HIM I`m talking about.

"It` s bien. " C'est tout ce qu'elle se répète.
(:<3

1.04.2010

Click HERE for a picture of the band of the month(:

"Take your time.
Live your life.
Say goodnight.
Then shove it down my throat."
-When In Rome by EatMeWhileImHot(:


So I just had a very long phone call(: It was probably the most fun I`ve had on the phone with someone, since last New Years. My sides hurt from laughing so much. But He doesn`t feel good. His tummy hurts): But before I got off the phone he said it was feeling better. He said he was coming to school weather his tummy hurt or not. I disagree strongly.... But he doesn`t know that(:

I uploaded a new picture onto my deviant. Click HERE and you can see it. It`s a bit grainy, but that`s actually what I was going for. It kind of reminds me of Buffy the vampire slayer.Ahaa(:

So my school is having this spirit thing called WILDCAT WILDNESS. everyone HAS to do it. There`s no choice in the matter. Eight graders are going against the seventh graders and sixth graders are going against the fifth graders. It`s this friday and it`s during school. We`re suppose to have T-shirts, but we haven`t gotten them yet. Or we have and I just wasn`t here. Which is a lot more possible. Unless they`re giving them out later in the week.

The quote at the top of this post is from the song called WHEN IN ROME by EatMeWhileImHot. I`ve recently found it on my music player. I didn`t know uploaded it until I was looking through my list and found it. The title looked interesting so I picked it. Now it`s on repeat on my stereo, that`s how awesome it is. And you know that guy fro NeverShoutNever? Christopher Drew? Yea, he`s the singer and screamer. He screams. It`s so weird listening to him scream, because I`m so use to him and his natural non-screamy voice. But he can change tones in a snap. It`s amazing. Speaking of screamers. Oliver Sykes might have to stop screaming. It was reported that he visited the doctor`s office and they said the way he was screaming, which was apparently wrong, was messing up is vocal cords and if he doesn`t stop he could loose his voice for good. bummer.

I`ve been kicking butt on my science fair project. there`s a post on here that has the topic or question or title of my project. But here it is again: How Do Different Genres Of Music Affect the Pulse Of A Human?
Ya Digg.

(:<3

1.02.2010

Wish I Stayed by Ellie Goudling(:<3

"what a comfort to find out you're losing your mind when you re-realize that it's not the first time. burnt the beyond when you learned how to fly just to learn later on that there isn't a sky..."
-lemonheads(:


Looking behind her shoulder, eyes twinkle at me. The corners of her soft mouth turn up and she disappears. Saddened by this action, I followed her. Followed her to see what she holds. To see how she can cause so much chaos inside me over just a small event. Yet when I turn the corner, she was no where to be found. As if she has disappeared into thin air. Though you`ve probably heard this a many times over. But I`v been down this alley before. Before its walls were clean of markings. But now, strange symbols cover every inch. Overlapping one another, and disappearing as I look away from them. I hear my name being called and I turn to see who has called me. Then I see her. Chaos girl. I see her, but she is disfigured, like she isn`t totally here. And can see right through her, like she was nothing but painted glass. I know I was told many times to not fall for this trick, but when she beckoned me to her, I nodded and my feet started moving forward. I cried out and he smiled, holding her arms wide open. I fell into them, and notice they weren`t as warm as they looked. But they were electrifying. They shocked me constantly, though I didn`t want to leave them in fear that she would disappear. So I stay there, dying slowly in the arms of an evil angle. I cry out and she hushes me, covering my mouth with her lips, she kills me. I crumble into her and darkness envelopes me.

1.01.2010

Cheez-its and Cream Cheese(:

[14:49] s4mmdee: you spin me right round baby right round
[14:50] blockers: like a record baby right round round round
<3(:

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"That scared the world outta me!" -Caitlynn Ann A.K.A My Baby Sister<3(:



Ya knowwwww.... Boys can be so oblivious sometimes.
But...... They`re also very smart.



Nom Nom Nom Nom Nom(:

Happy New Year Everyone(:

"Before It`s too late, to write love on her arms..." -Time Will Fade by To Write Love On Her Arm(:

I hope 2010 is way better then 2009 and I`m dead serious. 2009 sucked. The only GOOD things that came out of last year was my boyfriend, John(:, me getting a camera finally, and good music. Other then that, it sucked butt.
I don`t think I told you I`m going out with John, or that I have a camera. I shall tell you now, and we shall start with John.....

You obviously know who he is, how amazing he is, and pretty much how close we are. I really think you DON`T know how shy he is to people he doesn`t know. But he`s hilarious, he`s reallly cute, and he`s different. But different in a good way. Anyway, we were talking in the hallway, talking and laughin as usual. He just came out of his last class and i was going into mine, and in the middle of laughing, he stopped and stared at me. He opened his mouth a couple of times as if to say something, but nothing would come out and he would blush and shake his head. I just smiled at him and blushed as well. Right before I had to go into my last class, he pulled me aside and asked me out. I nodded. took happily shocked to speak and went into my class room. Once I was in my class room I dropped all my book, fell into my seat, and just smiled the whole class.
John is very quite, but also very loud at the same time. like, if he doesn`t know you, he won`t talk to you, unless you talk to him first. But once you start talking to him, cat`s out of the bag man. He talks and talks and talks. I love it. He`s a headbanger. He can`t stand rap or hip-hop. Which is good, because I can only handle that stuff to a limit. Haha. He`s super dooper funny as I`ve told you, and he`s easy going. Which reminds me to call him today.
He has dark dark brown hair, almost black,
and it`s wavy,
He has brown eyes,
he`s a wrestler,
he`s lean,
and he`s tall.
And I love him.

I got a camera for christmas. It`s not the one I wanted, but it`s a good camera and I`m very greatful that I have it(: It`s purple, and its very light and good sized. i`ve already taken a lot of picture with it, and they`ll either be on my facebook, deviant, or twitpic.

I have two more day until I go back to school. It`s good in the sense I can see all my friend and my boyfriend again. But it`s bad because there`s no more sleeping in and we have work to do. Plus I have to start busting my butt for science fair. I`ve only tested two people out of fifteen. OhMyGoodnessImBehind. ahcnalshjsxa.

I have to clean my room today. And do some work. And get some pictures up on my facebook, and deviant from a shoot and from last night. Which wasn`t as exciting as it should`ve been.

Listening to We Got The Beat by The Go Go`s.
Gotta love that 80`s music(: