The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
-Here Without You by Three Doors Down
I was on the phone with him and the conversation was elected into the hall of favorite conversations(: We were talking about scary movies and he was rather shocked when I told him I`ve never seen any of the Saw movies, Children of the corn, Chucky, Micheal or freddy movies. He said when I go over his house he wants me to watch them with him. See, I have this thing where I won`t watch a scary movie by myself for the first time. And since the Saw movies are supposably super doper scary, I am most likely going to cry. I told him that too. He said if I did, he`d turn the movie off and feel really bad. I told him don`t be surprised if I hide behind a pillow or cover my eyes and start shaking. Haha. I sound ridiculous. Thunder storms and scary movies are my fears. I love scary movies though. I know it sounds really bad, but I do. I bet fi you ask any of my friends, my close friends though, they`d tell you that I`m terrified of little things but I love watching scary movies.
Can you put the past away?
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
I would understand
-Jumper by Third Eye Blind
Put yourself in this situation: You`ve been in a relationship with them for a while and have a bit of history with that person. You`re in a great relation ship now, and you wish the other person is too. But you still have feelings for them. No matter how deep inside they are, they`re still there. Boiling on low. Only causing slight butterflies. Having you think about them constantly in the back of your mind. Then something big happens between you and that other person, and your feelings explode inside you. Your thoughts are filled to the brim with nothing but them and you blush constantly to old memories and thoughts of them, not caring if you look like an idiot. But you get scared. Scared that it`s just a phase. Scared that they`re just messing with you. Scared that it`s all lies. So you come up with two options. One being you could run away, change everything about you and who you are. But what about who you`re with now? Don`t you care about them at all? Would you want to hurt them by leaving? No, of course not. You love them. So it leads you to option two; avoiding the person, live your life like nothing ever happened with that person, and erase everything from your life that has to do with them. But you`re bestfriends with that person. You can`t go avoiding them on some random day. They would want an explanation, forcing you to lie and say
never mind, it`s nothing, don`t worry about it.
I`m still frustrated that I can`t wear the dress I wanted to wear. I`ll admit, it`s a bit formal for a semi-formal party. But it`s so gorgeous. I think I already described what it looks like. But the back it exposed, and has laced work that keeps it closed. My sister said You`re not aloud to wear it, you`ll upstage me. I couldn`t believe it. No one will even notice me. Almost everyone at her party is gonna be her age and up. Of course I know them, but they`re HER friends. Not mine. They won`t be paying attention to me.
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