I`ve had this song stuck in my head for three days now<3

Dead is the new alive
Despair's the new survival
A pointless point of view
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

Dead is the new alive
Life's only living rival
A casket built for two
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

So take me now or take me never
I won't wait
You're already late
So say goodbye or say forever
Choose your fate
How else can we survive?
Dead is the new alive

Dead is the new alive
A gothic play revival
The last act of the show
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

So take me now or take me never
I won't wait
You're already late
So say goodbye or say forever
Choose your fate
How else can we survive?
Dead is the new alive

What is day without a blessed night?
And what is peace without a blessed fight?
What is the day without a blessed night?
And what is peace without a blessed, blessed, blessed fight?

A quick taste of the poison
A quick twist of the knife
When the obsession with death
The obsession with death becomes a way of life

A quick taste of the poison
A quick twist of the knife
When the obsession with death
The obsession with death becomes a way of life

Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Dead is the new alive
Alive, alive, alive
Dead is the new alive
Alive, alive, alive
Alive
Dead is the new alive
Alive
Dead is the new alive

Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive


Dead is the new alive by Emilie Autumn(:

Save The Last Dance For Me(:

So I`ve been uploading some work up on my deviantART. Check it out: http://s4mm.deviantart.com/

Once I get a camera...the camera I put on my christmas list hopefully... I`ll be able to experiment with landscapes and other people and such. I`m really hoping I get that camera. So keep your fingers crossed for me please! I`ve also been working on a drawing, which I rarely do anymore. I guess Jazz does that to you. And I`ve been listening to alot of jazz lately. Many Frank Sinatra, but still. i`m not even sure he`s considered Jazz.
I was talking to my friend John about the music I showed him and he told me he was listening to it at his house, and his mom called him a psycho for listening to that band( We Butter The Bread With Butter). hey aren`t that crazy. Just german screamo/metal. They`re wicked awesome. I want to see them in concert!!!
I have The Reason by Hoobastank stuck in my head. it`s a really good song though(:

How Do Different Genres Of Music Affect The Pulse Of A Human?

Have you ever wanted to break down and cry, give up, but didn't know why.

I hate mice. I really do. And I`m not one for hating, but these rodents are getting on my last nerve. Sure they were fine when you only saw them once in a while. But now. Oh my goodness, I want to rip my hair out. But if I do that, I`ll be ripping out by beautiful and newly dyed hair. Blonde bangs, red glazed, and bright red underneath. Anyhoo, back to the mouse problem. I want them all gone. I`ll wake up to then scratching at my walls. Now I live in a very old, unsettled, and thrown together house. I hate it. Well not entirely, because it`s big and pretty, and has nice workmanship. But it`s not insalated, or how ever you spell it, it`s freezing during the winter, except for my room, which is like africa at the moment, and its blistering hot during the summer. Except for my room, which will be like winter. My room is the only liveable room in my house at the moment. The mice thing started about a year ago. And like I said, it wasn`t as big of a deal as it is now. They would rarely be seen and almost never bothered you. But at the year went on, they got worse. There`s a bunch of them, you hear them all hours of the day/night, walking , they wake you up, they pop up under your feet. It`s just soooooo annoying. And I`m too scared to just kill one on the spot. And the traps I`m terrified of. I`m always scared that it`s gonna snap shut on m fingers when I`m taking the mice off of it. I hate mice. I want them gone, dead, and out of my house. I`m taking this matter up with my mother. I will write her a strongly worded letter-or just give her a massive lecture, though I`m not good at the-, I will give her evidence-though she has heard and seen these little monsters-, and I will explain what must be done and how much it will cost her. I mean, I have a baby sister. Four years old, going on five. She`s still very vulnerable to germs and their affects. So what if one bites her? I wouldn`t doubt that the medical bill would cost more then to just to hire someone to get ride of them. Sure, they make shots that are suppose to help fight them, but they don`t always work.
All a vanccine is, is just a dead-er version of the virise it`s fighting against. Once that vaccine is in your body, the brain will take a picture of it, and will automatically kill the vaccine, because it`s a virus. But you see how people have died who got the vaccine, compared to people who`ve lived and haven`t gotten the vaccine. This is because the snie flu virus DNA or germ, is different. It`s constantly changing. Doctors only have one or two types of the germ in the vaccine. Your body will know how to fight against ONLY those types of germs. Meaning, that when or if people get swine flu and they`ve goten the vaccine, they`re more likely to die then to live, because they MIGHT get a different type of germ(s) and the body won`t know how t handle it or fight against it. Causing the person to get horribly sick and you know the rest. Now, I`m only going by recent studies. I could be wrong by the time you get this, or I could be right. But vaccines and viruses are like this only with the swine flu, they`re like this with almost all viruses and such. But doctors have identified ninety-nine percent of a viruses germs, and have put them together in the vaccine. This is also why you need to update your shots every so often, because the vaccine is killed off and has to be updated with the brain, so your body can stay healthy and fight AGAINST the virus.
Like I said, I hate mice. want them D-E-A-D.

Click on the title of this blog and you`ll see the most strangest picture in history. I mean, it`s pretty awesome who ever did it, but it is just SOOOOOOO odd. When I first say it, I did`t know what to think. Weather to be scared, laugh, think it was normal for a sick minded human being. I wasn`t sure. So I used it(:
HopeYouLikeIt(:<3

Click HERE for a picture:]

".....We`re under the sheets and you`re killing me. In our house made of paper, your words roll over me...." -Under the sheets by Ellie Goudling.

So if you click the title of this blog you can see one of my deviants. I have a lot more. Just click my name and then click gallery on my page.
HopeYouLikeIt(:

 I have a new favorite song. It`s by Coldplay. Of course. Haa. But its an original: Lovers in Japan. But it`s acoustic! I heart acoustic songs very much. I just think acoustic songs are so much prettier. But I found it today and I can`t stop listening to it. At least for now. I`ll probably get sick of it sooner or later.

I have a favor to ask whoever reads this and/or looks at my works on deviantART.com. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment on my pictures. I really want to know what people think of them. Once I get my scanner up and running, I`ll upload my drawings. But until then, I can only use my PC`s camera. So it`s kind of hard to do portraits of other people or things. Sorry.

Please and thank you so very very much(:



Yesterday was my stepdad`s birthday. He is now thirty four minus one(: My mom couldn`t fins another three candle for the cake ,so she put a thirty four, a minus sign-made of a sideways one candle-, and a one candle. My mother is so silly. But I love her to death. No matter how mad-making she gets<3 My sister and I picked a card out for him and it was a pickle. It was so funny. 


I was sitting on the couch, waiting for everyone to get here for the birthday gathering-cause it wasn`t much of a party-, I started thinking of a character. And that character started to speak to another character. Soon enough I had a story going. It has vampires and magic and romance, and I`m thinking I should finish my other story before I even start on this one. Ahaa. 


Today I`m going to church. I miss everyone there(: Even though I don`t know all of them, I love them all. They`re such good people, and they`re a lot of fun to be around. Hilarious, caring people. Ah, I love them! 
I`m also gonna see Timmy. My big brother-not really but that`s how close we are-. I haven`t seen him since August. Which is a really long time. I missed his birthday too. I feel really bad about that. I was gonna call him, but I couldn`t find his number. I was gonna tell him at church, but he didn`t show up. So I completely forgot about it all until a week ago. So I`m going to sing to him when, or if, I see him today. If I don`t see him I think I just might cry. He`s I think twenty now. I don`t remember. But either way, he`s still my big brother and I love him(:
I also have to go to Derek`s house today and drop off his camera, which he left at my house since June! But he lives right up the street. Now that I think about it, I could`ve dropped it off way earlier then now. Couldda, wouldda, shouldda I guess. Ahaa. 


I was talking to my grandfather Olinda-mother`s side of the family- about photography, and how I want to do portrait photography. He wants to too! How wonderful is that? He was telling me camera suggestions, tips, about his first camera. It was a deep conversation. I was deeply into it too. We both were. We actually talk for about an hour and a half, and didn`t notice it was quiet until he pointed out Daniel-my adorable and favorite littlie- was smiling at me. It was hilarious! My grandfather is a lot better at photography then he gives himself credit for. I saw a black and white photo he took of my mother when she was my a little older then my baby sister`s age. It was amazing. She also looked a lot like I did when I was that old, maybe younger. INSANE. I`ve actually seen a lot of the pictures he`s done, and they`re all amazing. It`s really inspiring. 
I real serious about this whole photography thing. I really want to do it. I`ve seen some amazing work of art. That includes painting and drawings. But I think photography is prettier. Because you`re catching a moment in time. A moment that won`t look different. There won`t be another moment like that one. It will always be an original. It`s a memory.You can also show your feelings or thoughts through photography. It`s an escape. I love it.

Who Ever Said Nightmares Couldn`t Come True?

"All around me are familiar faces, some worn out faces...." -Mad World by Dark By Design:)

He broke up with me. But he had a GOOD reason. Reasons I should say.  I agree with the second reason though. Sadly. But we`re friends now. He kinda broke the tension because he said "Thanks for taking it so well, most girls wouldn`t have. Haha." I wasn`t as sad. I was actually in a daze when he told me, so I didn`t really worry about it.
Job shadowing was yesterday. I went to my elementry school, ad got to hangout with a class of fourth graders. Fourth graders are so violent! I was watching my friend John take the class he as shadowing out, and this one kid got kicked in the face and got sent to the nurses office while the other kid kept playing. GEEZ. Then, at lunch, I was sitting with my class and this kid was showing me his toy cars. He was playing with them when the boy next to him asked him, nicely, to stop. Then everything when nuts. The car-kid yelled at him and started throwing his cars at the boy next to him. I wanted to do something, but I was too shocked to move.  I was so surprised little kids were so violent. I mean, I have a four -soon to be five- year old sister, and she isn`t anything near as violent as these wee ones were.  So I decided to tell a teacher and then sit with Zac`s little sister. She`s so funny. She sits at a table of girls -I guess boys and girls had a territory line to follow- , and her friends are so... Oh what`s a good word.... Grown up. Except for one, but she`s HILARIOUS. 
The bus ride there and back, I sat with my friend John, and we listened to his mp3 player. He has  a lot of good music. We pretty much listen to the same type of music. A lot of the same bands too. Anyhoo, I sat with him and our friend Josh, and we all just cracked jokes and listened to music. The other ids were loud and sang to their our music. And on the way back, since Josh didn`t go to the same place as John and I did, we had to sit with someone else. Someone who wasn`t as exciting. Ahaa:). But we ended up getting the three seater to ourselves and we listened to John`s music, yet again, and talked about music and concerts. I supposably going to a free concert for i think Job for a cowboy and a bunch of other bands. I`m not sure. It`s next year, over the summer.
Well, I have a scial studies project due tomorrow.
Bai:)