I Think It Just Might Work(:

...It`s time that we found out who you are...

I`m not sure what to do about them anymore. They`ve been getting drastically worse and I usually deal with them well. But once in a while they get upsetting and I wake up breathing heavily, sweat drenched. Sounds gross huh? You don`t even know the half of it. And I`m not gonna explain it. Sorry. It`s not because I`m trying to be a jerk or because I`m in a bad mood. I`m just don`t think I can handle talking about them. That`s not how it always was. I use to talk freely about them, like they were regular dreams any girl my age would have. Well for me, they are regular. we`re hitting almost eighteen months here with these. How sick nasty is that? Going almost two years of the same thing every night. Ha. And I don`t mean that in a good way.

Have you sweared to someone? I don`t mean swearing as in say obscene words, I mean keeping a secret. What do you say? Do you say ' I promise to never let those words escape my lips.' I do. How about 'you can trust me, really. No one will know.' I do. How`s this... 'You don`t have to worry about thing. I swear.' I do. But have you ever broken that swear? I have. How many times? Once? Twice? Maybe more? Yes, more then twice. I feel so ashamed to say it, but it`s the truth. But it`s not like anyone`s perfect. I know that`s played into your head over and over again, written everywhere and on everything. But it`s true. I don`t I`ve ever met smeone who has never lied a day in their life. I probably never will. Sad isn`t it? Not really. At least I don`t think so. If people didn`t lie, we wouldn`t have surprises. We would`t have the war. We wouldn`t have a lot of things. Global warming was a lie. At least that`s what they`ve been telling us. It might be becoming too hard to find natural fuels we could use when our original ones are gone. It could be a lie. No body knows.

Oh what a world what a world!
Shame.