I want to cry, but not of sad tears.

I know it's been a very long time since I've been on here. And it's weird being on here. But not so weird that it repulses me. But it's actually relieving. I have so much to tell you. It's probably gonna be told in a jumbled mess but that's because I don't know any better way to tell you, and because i have it all on the tip of my tongue and I need to get it out of my system asap.

But I'm growing up. A lot. And I'm going into nineth grade and into high school. But I'm not going to schalick..... where all my other friends are going. I'm going to a votech/ advancement school where I can start college while I'm high school. I'm so excited and so thrilled to be able to do what I love and meet new people and just.... I'm excited.  But it also sucks because I have a boyfriend now, and I'll tell you more about him<3 when I'm done with this. And he's going to schalick and I'm not gonna be able to see him a lot. But then again... there's always after school and school functions and such.

Now my boyfriend. Daniel Strong. He's amazing. and you're probably wondering why i think so. Well.... I don't have words to describe the feelings I have for him. I don't have sentences that can say what I feel when I see him or think of him. I don't have a way at all to show you how much I love him. Now I know we haven't been together for a long time, but we've talked and have had conversations on everything. We're almost the same person. In somethings it's a bad thing, in others it's good. In this case, it's good. We both say sorry too much. We both don't care what people think. We're both in the same situation. I know it sounds cliche but he understand me and the stuff I go through and feel and think of when things happen against the grain or with it. He knows how to make me smile and how to make me mad. He knows how to make my body fill with butterflies and drain my sad thoughts. He knows what to say and how to say them. He knows when to ask and when it doesn't matter. He just knows. And I love him for it. But we don't get to see eachother a lot. He lives rather far from me, and his mother doesn't want him coming to elmer. And my parents don't always have the gas to run me out here nor do they have the money for gas. And it's the governments fault. And I'm not going into my feelings about that. I'll get mad. I have so much more to tell you, but I just can't figure out how to word it. When I do, I'll tell you(:

He just makes me sooooooooooo happy. I wish everyone could meet him(:

So I think I'm gonna become a hippie. Again. I use to be one.... but after some events I couldn't handle it. But Now.... because of those events... I can. And I'm going to be.

It all started with a crappy camera and a day after it rained. I thought the flowers and outside looked gorgeous with the rain drops on them. So I started taking pictures of them. Then of the people I saw. Then I started adding things like props. And taking more pictures. My love for photography began. And It's growing stronger. But I need a new camera. One with a better focus and zoom. I mean, I like my camera now for simple photos, but I want to be able to take more detailed and complicated photos.

OhBuddyGee<3