Have you ever missed someone so much it hurts? Like you don't remember that they're gone until you go home to talk to them, to spill all your thoughts and opinions out to them, and they aren't there. Instead, they are buried deep underground, and you want to rip through the dirt until your fingers bleed, just to see them again. Just to hear them. All the while, hoping with every breath, that it's all a dream.
We got a new puppy last night(: I love him so much it's ridiculous. But honestly I'm scared. I'm scared I'll compare him to Guin, or get too attached, and when he's gone, it'll feel like my heart is ripped out. I don't want that again. I don't think I can handle it.
I'll upload pictures of it later.
"I lost people because they were trying to stand up for him and said I did something wrong. But I was nothing but sweet and caring and everything I could be without being a slut and disrespecting to myself. Sometimes I hate boys. No offense to you. you're older. Younger ones are so oblivious to what they get and to what they deserve. They always think they deserve better because they're 'men' when in all actuality, they haven't even hit puberty yet. Their voices are still girlish and shrilled. They haven't gotten acne yet, or started getting stubble. They haven't gotten over their first kiss. But they just jerks and buttfaces. It bewilders me that they are completely oblivious to what is handed to them. And it's not even handed to then. It walk right up to them and falls head over heels, and what do they do? They treat it like it's some stupid stuffed animal and beat her heart to death until she can't take it anymore, and starts becoming less to him. UGH! I hate them.
I'm sorry. "
OhMyGoodness.
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