"..... It`s in your head..." -Zombie by The Crannberries
John(: came over today. He left a couple minutes ago actually. We chilled in my room and listened to music. But first, we went into the computer room and I showed him the song Mud Diggers. I forget who it`s by. Ask my sister. She`s the reason I know it. Anyway, when we were in my room, I got really nervous, because he was so close to me. Not nervous like he`s gonna do something. I always get nervous around him. I wouldn't consider it nervous though, it`s more like butterflies and blushing. I know I was blushing, because he kept smiling and my face kept feeling hot and tingly. I couldn't look at him without that happening. Then My sister, Him and I all walked to the store up the street. I was too nervous to hold his hand, so I walked three feet away from him. I was thinking rather hard on weather I should just suck it up and hold is hand and then kiss him or just suck it up and kiss him. Then I thought to myself; If you're too scared to hold his hand, what makes you think you could hold his hand and kiss him all in one shot? My sister picked on me for not holding his hand while we walked. I felt so bad. He probably felt uncomfortable because what she was saying.
I probably made it awkward. I always do. My mother always calls me an awkward child. Ugh. I hate that flaw of mine. One of the many I think. Ha, my dad said I don`t have any flaws and I told him, "that you can see." He laughed. I was serious. Sigh.
Not counting today, there`s four days until Ashley`s party. I`m so excited it`s not even funny. John`s coming over after school the day of, and I`m gonna teach him to slow dance. We decided, since he`s coming over after school, he`s just gonna get ready here. I told my sister that and she was like "Wouldn't that be weird though? I mean, you two are going out and they`ll be getting changed and ready in the same house. Creepy."
Aaaaah. ICan'tWait
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