Rapunzel.

“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”

I broke my first bone on thursday. My hand. I`m in a splint now, because the doctors don`t know if it`s broken enough to be in a cast yet. I already decided my colors; Purple with blue stripes. I told my doctor-who was scottish and really funny- that and he just laughed. He`s like, then keep the brace off so you`ll get the cast. And I have. Not because he told me to,m but because I can barely move my hand with it on, and since I write with that hand, I can`t write. I tried writing with my left, but it didn`t work. So I just take it off until it hurts too bad. Everybody seems so shocked and they keep asking what happened. I`m at the point where I think I`m going to record myself and just keep replaying it. I think the way I broke it is an original. I mean, how many people do you know, have broken a bone falling out of bed? Not many I`m guessing. Well, that`s how I broke it.

I don`t know weather I should love them, hate them, ignore them, or just let things be how they are. I want then to just deal with the fact. I want them to know my feelings, know what's what, and get over it. Get over what can be and what can`t be. I want them to know how things are, how things were, and how things will be. I want them to know that just because you're hot, or nice, or smart, I`m not gonna fall for you. There`s more to it then just looks and knowledge. Looks get you know where.
But you know what? It`s nice to want.

I need to get away. To let things unravel and work things out. To figure out how things are going to be. I can`t have my cake and eat it too. I need to not be so nice, a pushover, a girl who is sweet-talked into everything. I can`t be that anymore. I need to have some respect for myself and I have to be able to decide for myself. I need to deal with people not liking me. I need to not let people use me. I need to not let myself get guilted into things. I need to get out, enjoy my life, get in trouble, shoot for my goals and dreams. I`m never going to do that if I`m tied down by people and status and looks and words that unfortunately pour out of people's lips.

Think Before You Speak...

HesTheOneAndOnly(:
12.14.09
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